Taking responsibility of my life

Evening dairy well that's easter over for another year, much better than last year, life has been busy, been a dad and that thing called work just taking up time but all in all life is moving forward.

Really need to keep my dairy more up to date, can start to see things slipping backwards so need to keep on top of everything. Just silly things at the moment but have seen them in the past and not going to fall back there again.

Enjoy life we can all be happy just start with been honest to yourself and rest will come.

Well as happens every time life starts to improve I throw it all in the bin by letting gambling back in. I was in a good place felt like I had a chance at life again, how wrong could I be, back to square one. I will work until my boys need me no more then I will give in to life.

You slipped. Get back up and carry on.

CW

Hello diary, hello world, 2015 has been a waste of time I've done the same this year as every other, I've spent Christmas alone due to not been in control I've let life pass me by, but from here on in 2016 is going to be a great year.

You see I have everything if I want it, I have my health I can do anything I want, there are people out there today who need help just to get out off bed, I can but at times have chosen not to, I have sight and can see all the beauty life brings but have chosen not to, I have my hearing but have never listened to people around me, and because of these basic things I am in a better place than a lot of people, yet they can still live a full and loving life.

So from now on will ask myself at the end of each day "did I make the most of my day?" If I get see all the great things around me did I hear what people said and did I try then the answer will be yes but if I shout myself away in a bookies or my room and just let the timer tick down on my life then I will have wasted another day, having wasted so many already there is very little time left. So to anyone out there if you feel down but have your health then snap of the self pitty find something positive even if it just a walk in the park, phone that someone special and tell them, we can all have a loving life we just need to let others in

Hears to 2016 the greatest year so far

Second that Chris here's to 2016 .

Suzanne xx

Well it's finally here 2016 and it's going to be the best, no more regrets just a fresh start, no hangover, going to find something different this year that makes getting up even more worth while

A happy new year to everyone

I think it's time gambling hits the news we already have days and even months for no smoking or drinking this year we should push for a national no gambling day when all casino ads are band from tv, all bookies all left empty and everyone here can add another day to their count.

I've come back and carried on my old diary would be great to say all has been good since I was last here but far from it. But 2 weeks ago I came to the conclusion that I can never walk away a winner in the past 3 months I had had 2 big wins I started planning how I was going to spend it, holidays new car everything was great but after only spending a few hundred on days out a few nice things the rest had gone back in and I had nothing left again, so I now just enjoy what I earn it's more than enough to live on if I don't keep giving it away so that's how I'm going to spend the rest of my time

weAs I have said in the past gambling took everything from me, I left my job because of it my family left me over it and by April 14 I was left with a few clothes and a car, I moved back in with my mum dad after spending Easter living in my car and they took control as time went by I slipped tripped and fell in a even bigger hole

Well it's now April 17 3 years on I have signed the contracts to buy my only house back I get to go fishing at the weekend end for a lot less than I would loss on a Friday afternoon in the bookies I have a great relationship with my 3 kids who have grown up so much, but still I can't let that one last person leave my life, she has her new fella now which I'm happy for her she should be happy, just cos I screwed up why should she suffer for the rest of time, but then something like this weekend happens and I start digging deep down why am I so stressed over her taking her new fella down to meet her mum and friends the only answer I have come up with is deep down I must still love her but know it would never work, but need to get this off my chest in an forum no one I know will read but may be someone can cast a few thoughts as to why, I don't want to turn back to gambling I am going to move forward without it make friends and be happy.

After everything I have just said today is still a good day today I didn't gamble today I held both my boys and said I love you

Screwball

Thank you so much for that heartfelt post sharing your feelings about your ex. It's good to see that even with that sadness still present, so much else has improved in your life. At the end there you seem to be saying you did gamble yesterday - am I picking that up right?

Keep us posted about how you are doing,

Forum Admin.

Admin thanks for pointing that out it was a typo and have edited it now, I did not gamble today is going to be another good day

Thought I would stop by and just say another today has been another good day, with cash in the bank and some in my wallet and even time if I had wanted to, today I didn't gamble instead I took my young lad to football training then went home and just put my feet up no stress no worries life is there to be lived and not wasted.

Just want to say it's good to hear you're feeling happier with your life.
Well done regarding being able to buy your home. You never know what the future may bring, what we do know is it can only get better with gambling out of our lives.
All good wishes x

Thanks little miss, great to see your over that 100 day mark, I should still have time to fit 2 of them in this year if life keeps heading in the right direction.

Another day has passed another chauk mark on the wall not long now till i hit my first month again

Evening all, staying strong and focused and not letting my guard down, went out for a drink last night had a great sociable night, no gambling, no slopping off to play the machines and then with loads of spare time today still kept myself safe. don't even get urge at the moment. Hope everyone's having a great weekend