I am nearly 50 years old have gambled all my adult life in some form or other. Just over a week ago the debts, the secrecy, the lies and the shame all got too much. I left a note for my wife and bolted. Many hours and many hundreds of miles later the police found me and I returned home. This is the 2nd time I have opened up about this horrible addiction. 2years ago my wife found out about my gambling and the debts I had amassed. Family did what they thought was best and bailed me out. Only a few months later I was gambling again and building the debt back up. This time however feels different. I am seeking proper help with my addiction. Seeking help with my mental health and seeking advice to deal with my debts. I hate what I have put my family through especially my wife and kids. At times in the last week I feel positive but also experience really low moments. I'm not sure if this is normal at the early stages of recovery but I am so determined to prove to myself and my love ones that I can beat this and return to a life worth living.
Thank you (@catkit). Its a start but rebuilding relationships is going to be as bigger battle as beating this. I start to feel positive then something knocks me back but I have a resolve to do this this time.
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