This is self harming without scars

Hi

It was savings that I've worked hard to build up. I know that I could easily go on to lose the rest as I cannot control myself once gambling. It starts with £5-£10 bets and soon £500 ones. I'm going to build my future now and not that of a lowlife bookie. Although I accept its my responsibility not lose throw my money away. My life would be different currently if I hadn't wasted the amounts I have in the past and also the psychological damage that accompanies gambling. Good luck to you also

Hi New day, your story is almost exactly like mine. I gambled nearly all my savings it had taken 6 months to earn. Once I started could not stop till even which meant I chased. Knew I did this but still next time I did the same. Really did hit rock bottom for me this time, feel so low and think killed a part of me inside which was gambling induced, finally now realise how I've wasted my life for years, I put gambling before love, family even myself and you need to know life will be tough for a while but rewards not gambling are tenfold. Set little goals for yourself to meet, reward yourself when not gambling and hold onto pain gambling has caused as a motivator not to do it again. I hope for your success in beating this, your not in debt and still have money so be positive, without gambling your money will only grow!

Day 4 and no gambling. Had urges Monday and seriously considered putting" one last bet on" but I'm sure everyone knows there's no such think for an addict. Still very annoyed with my self for wasting the money and just as important setting my positivity levels back. I know I can move life on and always feel better when I'm working for some reason. Day by day things will get better and hopefully in a few weeks I'll be less annoyed and regretful of all the lost money but that's obviously when I need to be on my guard. Going to hit the running hard next week and set some rewarding goals for not gambling. I've always has access to money to treat myself but never do. Waste thousands with bookies instead. Well no more.

Why is it that bookies claim to be proud to support responsible gambling yet when a problem gambler asks to be excluded they only do it for a year? Absolute vermin. Another day gamble free

Hi just popping in to welcome you to diaries and say well done on 5 days.

Keep going onwards and upwards and keep winning.

Best wishes

Suzanne xx

Hi just popping in to welcome you to diaries and say well done on 5 days.

Keep going onwards and upwards and keep winning.

Best wishes

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne

Thanks for the support.

Best of luck to you

You've made a great start mate, keep it going.

You've already had your "one last bet" so there's no need to contemplate another one! 🙂

Day 9 and still no bets. Starting to feel a little better/positive but had to really fight urges yesterday and today. Life will be so much better without the negative impact of gambling. I have to do this

A beautiful day and no money thrown away. A quick thought of the football on later was quickly pushed out of my mind. It's Alot easier for me not to think about gambling when working, It's the days off that prove tricky. Just trying to stop worrying about the lossed money and accept its gone. So annoyed with myself for wasting it AGAIN. It starts when I'm feeling so positive and in a good financial position. Then bang I go and ruin the positive way life's heading by bringing myself down. I'm writing this diary as a way of reminding myself that I can't come back to this point anymore. I've thought in the past about getting a tattoo on my hand or somewhere to remind me how bad this feels as it seems to disappear from my memory after a couple of months of not gambling. I've opted for a screen photo on my phone instead..... Good luck guys.

Another great day and had a run. That hurt but no gambling. I will and need to do this! Cheers

Had a slip up Saturday/Sunday. Really need to sort this. Feeling annoyed/stupid but trying to stay positive. Back on the wagon

Keep the updates coming.

Even though you slipped you can start again and before you know it a week, month and year will have passed!

Learn from whatever made you bet again. Read a few more diaries, see what others are doing to stop and the slip ups they've had.

I've tried to stop numerous times over the past 15 years or so, prior to this time I thought I would be able to recover and then be able to bet recreationally. I thought the money lost was the problem and not the gambling.

Now I know I can never gamble again. I've been through it one too many times, I know if I won £1m I would probably gamble it all away. I'm content that anything I want in life i will have to work and save for, I'm not going to pay for my holiday at a roulette table. I've blown over £50k at the roulette table, and I'm not unlucky, I'm just a gambler that doesn't know when to stop. I don't tend to look back at what I've lost any more, it's all about looking forward to a life without the stress and money worries of gambling.

Hi

i fully intend to kick this. I need to get the lost money out of my mind but it's dufficult. And I kniw excactly what you mean with not knowing when to stop. I have no discipline when I start gambling. The best thing is to not gamble at all. I did manage to stop the "blow out" before wasting everything but. Still disappointed with myself.