Day 3 nearly over. Haven't condumed any alcohol for the three days either. Need to start getting to grips with what my issues are that lead me to want to self destruct. Seems a lot worse when I'm not working and bored and unhappy. I'm going to change my life. I hate the way gambling makes me feel.
How you getting on??
Still no gamble. Went through the football prices today but have opted not to gamble. Reading posts in the forum has helped to focus me today. Here's to a gamble free weekend
Had another couple of bets yesterday. Feeling pretty low. The final bet was including Al selections today. I have no cancelled my bank card and s new one will be sent to my parents address. I won't be going to collect that until July at the earliest so that will help to stop the gambling cycle for a good ten weeks or so. By which time I will hopefully have built the bank balance back up again and improved my self respect. I know things will improve in a month or so as they always do but without access to the online world of gambling I know I won't/can't place a bet. I do not go into a bookies. Hence how easy it is to chase when you sitting at home without handing over "real" money. Although it obviously is real money. If any winnings do come back today I will withdraw them immediately and self exclude from this final account I opened yesterday. Time to start planning busy weekends and to stop any boredom setting in. I'm fine in the week when working. I run a business, in its early stages but it's secure and I have the chance to really change my life around. I could turn my life around pretty quickly over the next couple of years if only I don't squander anymore money. It does scare me when I feel helpless in the grips of gambling. I again didn't squander everything but since Xmas I've pretty much lost every extra penny I've earned by working very hard. It's sickening to think and realise that. Trying to focus in the positives again, that it is definitely better it has reared its ugly head again niw rather than in a year when there's a lot more money to risk and the future business developments to put at risk. I know inside that as long as I don't ruin my chances by gambling then I'll make a success of it all. Maybe that's why I've been a bit flippant in trying to recover the losses of the last few months consistently. Well I'll start the gamble free countdown again from tomorrow and at least now I know I can't place anymore bets that should help focus all my efforts in self improvement. I'm going to be the guy I want and should be. I read a lot of your posts and they are inspiring. I would love to be an inspirituon to others in time. But know the hard work starts for me. Last bet 26/4/15. I intend to sign all future posts with that date!
Hi
You are determined to not give up, so that is a massive positive, small steps and you can succeed.
Keep strong
Suzanne xxx
You should look at self exclusion, whilst you can't exclude from everywhere it certainly helps take away some of the temptation.
It was hard for me to do at first but before then I kept leaving a door ajar to go back to gamble.
I've excluded from every account I've ever opened. I think there's only a handful of the small no background bookies that I've not opened an account with over the years. However without a bank card I'll have no chance to open an online account.
A run, some nice dinner and a glass of red. Or two! Off for a bath and an early night. Not sitting and watching a computer screen for a sporting result from somewhere in the world. Hope everyone is also having a gamble free day.
last bet 26/4/2015
Feeling positive today. Looking forward to the long weekend! No thoughts of gambling, had a productive week. Starting to think these recent slips are a blessing In Disguise. Fully focused on beating it from this point forward.
Got a busy weekend planned. Going to enjoy this one without the dispair of chasing losses.
Not having access to Internet banking is definitely helping. No urges to check the football prices as I cannot place the bets even if I wanted to. I'm going to keep it that way for a while.
Well done new day, using the triangle is a great tool,
Keep strong and stay focused. and WIN again today.
Suzanne xxx
Feeling good today. Off to spend my winnings(money from not gambling) in a beer garden. Collected my new bank card and cut it up into pieces and didn't look at the numbers. That's gone into several bins. It's a lot easier without access to Internet banking.
Into double figures tomorrow. Sad to see fellow posters slip. Must keep the guard up at all times. Hope everyone is making the right choices for themselves
Well done new day, keep making those right choices and keep winning.
Keep strong and stay positive.
Suzanne xxx
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