Hello everyone, ive been reading some of the diaries on this website for a while now in the background and thought i would start a diary of my own. Ive been gambling now for what seems like forever even though its around 4-5 years. Things started out casual betting mainly on football and in play sports and everything was ok. As the years have gone on I have stepped into the dangerous world of online casinos, playing mainly blackjack and slots. I have just turned 25 and currently sit on an estimated debt of around £35k. Now of course ive had big wins in the past, and cleared my debts multiple times but always gone back to my old habits. My addiction has really peaked over the last 2 years finding myself increasing my bets, and borrowing more money to gamble with. Only 2 weeks ago I managed to somehow win £50k but naturally this didnt seem to be enough and i went on to loose the lot. I felt so stupid and can't stop thinking about the loss. This was the big turning point for me and I really have to stop and get my life back in order, the funny thing is that i can go gamble free for the whole month when i have no money, but as soon as i have available funds i cant help myself, thinking ill just have £100, but 30 mins later my whole monthly wage is gone! I have now realised this is no way to live, so this is hopefully the start of a new begining for me, and i am currently 10 days gamble free! If youre still reading this thanks for stopping by and any words of encouragement or methods for coping would be appreciated 🙂
Hi cydney I'm wife of cg. I would suggest asking someone to look after your finances. Or cancel credit cards, when new one arrives scratch 3 digit number on back off. Software blocks. There are many ways, but you have to really want to stop. GA also is a great way to get support. Good luck
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