Time to try again!

Well done on joining this forum it's a great first step up the ladder to success.

I'm not a gambler myself I'm a casualty of a gambler. I can't pretend to understand what goes on in the head of a CG either even tho I spent 15 years trying.

I could wish you luck but it's not luck that you need. It's the strength of will to turn your life around and never to place a bet again.

For someone to continue to gamble their money away it takes so much more - it takes their personality, their friends and even their family.

So I wish you strength, determination and above all a future

Shelly

Thanks for your reply and kind words Shelly,I guess Its hard for both sides to try and understand the other,CG cant always see the hurt and damage they are doing because all they can think about is getting their next "fix",but on the flip side the friends/family etc dont know just how strong the urges are for a CG,One of the many problems with gambling is that it isnt a physical addiction that can be dealt with by gradually reducing "doses",its "cold turkey" or nothing!

Day 4 done and dusted,Almost half way to double figures!

Day 6 begins! Looking forward to being able to say 1 week gamble free tomorrow night!!!

Sometimes we defy ourselves in the wrong way,last year i tried to stop and instead of coming in here ,i just stopped and got back to gambling,in the first day of this year i decided to stop smoking and gambling and i am free for 122 days,and believe me i wont stop coming in here ,it makes all sense now!!keep strong!!!

Today has been an utter nightmare for me today from start to finish (so far),Was so happy this morning and looking forward to another day being gamble free,My routine is get up with my son from 6am-7am then my partner gets up,looks after him from 7am-9am while i go back to bed (I have suffered from disturbed sleep for years so the 2 hours "extra" really helps).

Everything was fine until I woke up then the urges hit me like a ton of bricks! and they havent stopped all day!! Havent gambled though which I guess is a good thing!,im pretty much locked myself in the house to stop myself from going out! depresses me to have to lock myself in to stop myself from gambling,My son has gone to my mum and dads this morning and wont be back until tomorrow afternoon,Im starting to notice that im alot stronger mentally when hes around me constantly but that makes me hate myself even more.......a 3 year old shouldnt have that kind of pressure on him (admittedly he proberly doesnt know it) All in all its been an utterly horrid day for me and i will glad when its finally over!!!

Strength and good wishes to you all!

Today been better but still not easy by a long shot

Hi Darren - Sorry to read of your rough day yesterday, but hopefully you have emerged unscathed. The thing to remember in all this is that despite those urges, your strength of purpose helped you come through it.

Keep believing in yourself and your little boy and partner - there are lots of good days ahead to enjoy.

Joanna

Thanks Joanna,My gambling free days came through unscathed but not sure I did,Few emotional crisis's (is that a word?) Luckily my partner was with me to keep me going and helped me a tiny bit,I wanted to go out and gamble but she stopped me,I disliked her at the time but knew she was right,

On a more positive note..........1 WEEK GAMBLE FREE!!!!!

Hi mate, great to hear you got through this week unscathed. Sorry to read about your nightmare day on Friday, I'm getting those horrible days too. Great that you didn't gamble though, well done. I had a massive gambling frenzy one night last week and regretted every second of it. I'm back on the straight and narrow now but still some gamble thoughts which I guess might be the case for a few weeks. Stay strong and enjoy the weekend doing positive things.

Thanks for your reply Granite,Glad to see you back on the site for the last few days,Your not the first to fall of the wagon and you wont be the last but there's no condemnation here.....only support :),Friday taught me a valuable lesson about getting complacent,Woke up first thing in the morning (6am) full of confidence and looking forward to another day gamble free,Little did i know how much different the day would turn out less than 3 hours later,Glad i made it through even though it was very difficult,It was really my partner that kept me clean rather than me doing it myself (she took the keys and hid them from me),Hope you stay strong and enjoy the bank holiday Monday.

Day 10 and still gamble free,Double figures feels good,Still getting the thoughts to gamble but managing to tame them!.

Well done on the big 10. I'm not far behind you, still struggling but trying to stay busy. Keep positive, you are doing great.

Thanks mate,

How are things ?

How many days are you on now ?