Waiting for withdrawal madness

Day 5.

Been a tough day- 5 years today since my dad sadly passed away.

The gambling demon is a sneaky crafty devil. Always planting new seeds to try and make another deposit.

With the blocks I have in place i dont think this is possible. So looking forward, I have online gambling covered, but I return home in 10 days time from work, so gotta focus and keep my guard up for when that time comes. I am self excluded from local bookmakers, just cannot afford to

1) be tempeted if im in a new town

2) give someone in the pub money to put a bet on for me, 2 options here, make it clear to everyone in pub that i am recovering gambling addict, or stay away from pubs completely till i feel more comfortable

All that said making slow steady progress.Hope everyone is oding there best and trying to make the most out of life, the way I see it now this shouldnt be a struggle, should be the opportunity we have all been waiting for to rid ourselves of the horrid diesease and for us to be happier, spend our time and our money on things that dont make us depressed, anxious, stressed- doesnt bring us to our knees finacially and rockbottom- but actually makes us smile

So 1 week completed GF

Thoughts at the present time are- the initial gambling urges have passed, which thery must of been normal as i went form logging into online casino every possible opportunity to not.

Still feel safe with all blocks in place. My thoughts are at present, thinking back to online and FOBTs, Id say 99 times out of 100 the whole gambling experience was always based around "if only i could get back to even I'll be happy"

Well if you dont put a penny in- sure you dont get the buzz(but ye dont get the negative aftermath feelings either) then you are always at even, and 99 percent of the time thats all you wanted

Mark

After a ropey start i have made it to day 16 Gamble Free... I am truly thankful to Gamcare forum members for me making it this far.

The first week was full of urges but are definately getting less and less. Gamstop has been a great help. But the next three weeks will be the real test so will have to be on guard.

I het home tonight from work. So i havent been on land for the 16 days. But i am positive that i will make it through and have a happier time home without gambling

Well done on reaching 16 days gamble free, your doing great ..... keep at it i know the first fews weeks can be hard but as your days mount up you will start to feel all the benifits that a gamble free life has to offer ... all the best.

Well done on your start. I’m finding having the blocks in place really helps and when you do get that urge you know it’s been nipped in the bud is very helpful.

I have been there so many times with reversed withdrawals I would say most of my actual losses have come from reverses. In this supposed age of Responsible Gaming I find it abhorrent how prevalent reversals are with no facility to flush / lock a WD.

Good luck for the future.

Jeez day 25.... GF

Been struggling with a chest infection so not been up to much, but logging in and seeing day 25 feels good. Got first ever GA meeting on Monday, gotta be worth a go and hopefully get positives out of it. Havent been on to read thru most diaries like i did a few weeks back but i hope everyone is doing well