I got to understand my emotional triggers, pains I could not heal, fears I could not face, frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations, loneliness, and boredom.

My wife died, I didn’t want her spirit to ever see me gambling , I won’t ever .

im 4 months clean and I mean clean, nothing , not a penny not a chance 

life changing in more ways than one and I’m a non believer in spiritual stuff .

@holycrosser 

Hi

My conscience is spirtual based.

When I say or do some thing unhealthy I hurt myself.

I to am non religious.

Yet being in recovery helped me start to heal my pains.

I was also able to reduce my fears.

Today I am a very selfish person.

 I am in recovery to heal and become amuch healthier person.

Less anger, less fear, more aptience and tolerance, more loving, more forgiving.

Yet for each unhealthy habit I needed to exchange them to healthy habit.

For me today abstaining from gambling was just the start to my journey to healthy living.

Regards Dave L 

@holycrosser 

Hi

I understan that people will die.

Yet if we have a very close honest healthy intimate relationship with a very special person.

Those people when they die the healthy parts of those people still live with in us.

Before my mother died I found ways to heal my hurt inner child.

On my mother dying I was abale to have such a healthy intimate moment with her that her fears melted and she was very affectionate to me.

Even though she had a stroke and could not talk her eyes and heart were well connected with me.

I understand that in her life pains caused her to live in fear.

I understand that in my recovery my fears were very low and our honesty helped us have a healthy closure in our relationship.

Life with out pain and fear is very powerful.

Dave L

Hi

I am a non religious person yet I have become a more spiritual person.

I found that my addictions were due to certain emotional triggers.

My addictions were a form of emotional escape.

The word recovery means to me healing the pains of my hurt inner child. Anger was an unhealthy reaction to my pains not healed not healed my fears and frustrations.

Once we heal or pains we no longer live in unhealthy guilt in unhealthy shame or unhealthy regret.

As we exchange every unhealthy habit in to healthy habits.

As we reduce our time being consumed by our unhealthy addictions and our unhealthy obsessions we become more focused on our healthy needs our healthy wants we become more productive and more self sufficient. 

Just for today I will not gamble.

Just for today I will become so much more healthier and more self sufficient.

Just for today I will become a much healthier person who values time and realtionships.

As I give up unhealthy self abuse I learn to love and respect my self even more.

Dave

AKA Dave of Beckenham