More than addiction or more to the addiction??

Hiiiiiii everyone out there.

Typing from a completely broken heart but with a smile on my face for some odd reason.

My husband had me believe he was on recovery for the past 3 months. Today i finally got hom to give me his bank statements. Silly me was all too happy to have him co operate. That hes showing some sort of commitment.  He said i would have alot of questions and that he would answer them. Lol why does this all seem too good to be true. My heart was happy. He also mention that i would be surprised at a particular thing on the statement. I paid little attention to all that and was just glad that he gave it after his father paid 39k towards his debt ,relieving him of immense stress.

After putting my kids to bed i started scrutinising each transaction. From a month before he "stopped" upto today 2 months later. And everything was exactly the same! Different names and random references but a particular pattern being followed up to the a few days ago. As money came in, it was immediately sent out. Couple of times a day. I know hes been paying his debt.. but this looked top strange and for once i went with my gut. For 3 hours i sat sifting through names anf amounts.

Amounts deposited totalled to over 250k

And amounts transacted was almost the exact same.

The sad part is, in the last 3 months hes onky made 1 transaction to me, towards home and our kids, that too i had to pay back half because he was short.

I still cannot say if its still gambling deposits or if hes paying those people back. And borrowing more to pay people back and thrn borrowing again to pay back those people. 

My head and heart is at war, as evidence slaps me in the face, i still want to believe that hes not gambling. 

Then i stumble across something strange. Money paid for rent to a woman! A woman who has been a problem in our marriage before but that i thought was gone. Thats not even the best part, a payment made to a shop for hair salon supplies! And she owns a salon! And yet still a monthly payment made to her phone!!! 

My heart crashes just typing this again. While my family literally starves at home, literally as there isnt evn a loaf of bread. He has somehow managed to make a way to look after another family 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

I am shattered! Iv poured my heart and soul and emptied my cup, i evn put the cup in aswell trying to keep him together along with our family. 

I will be speaking to him tomorrow. I just hope and pray i have the courage to leave as i do now and not fall for his excuses. Jist today he was weeping like a baby needing to be comforted. 

Wat hurts more is the audacity of him to tell me he wants me to be surprised 😮. 

I think this is my cue. Im done. No idea what to do next, but its not this.

We could work with addiction,  but another woman? I think thatll be it.

I feel for his struggle eith addiction,  but this is just too much