Today I have made the decision to tell my parent that I can not trust them, that I cannot be responsible for making sure they had money for food, electric etc (after they have lost all of theirs), I have had to totally cut myself off from them to protect me and my children. I feel so heart broke about it all, I wish their was some other way. After them stealing from me, using my children as a weapon to try and gain her financial help, turning it round and pointing all the blame on me.. I have had to swerve the gambling because they are adamant theres no problem, I was told they was suicidal because of the pain I put them through, I was left thinking they was going to go and take their own life, all so I would supposedly say sorry and to say I'd forgive them/didn't believe they stole. Something I could not do. I got another family member to check on them, why another come straight to me. I wanted to call the mental health crisis team, until I was told the parent was away at the weekend!.. Not suicidal, and suffering as I was told. I'm soo angry and annoyed, and I'm peed off with myself for not spotting the shere manipulation used by them to try and regain control.
Don't know really why Im posting on here, nothing can change whats gone on, nothing can make things better atm. Guessing this is a safe place where I can vent, without the fear of being judged
That's one thing you have got right, you will not be judged here!
I'm so sorry for what you are going through.
You have made a very hard decision and I can sense your frustration and anger surrounding the whole situation. It's terrible the betrayal we feel when faced with the kind of situations our family/loved ones put us through when in the deep grip of their addiction. They obviously feel no remorse. My husband did a very similar thing some years back. The children had sealed tin money boxes for their pocket money which I thought were safe from him. Little did I know that he was using my eyebrow tweezers to get the notes and coins out then trotting off up the bookies with his haul. I class that as stealing. He had no right to take their money. He classes it as borrowing and said as its his kids money he is entitled to it! To say I was livid at the time is an understatement. I couldn't look him in the eye without wanting to rip his deceitful, thieving head right off his shoulders! It's stooping to a new low when you steal deliberately from those closest to you. But he has no problem with his gambling.....yeah right!
Stay strong and keep telling yourself you have made the best and right decision for you and your family. You don't need to be around this. They are your parents. You are not responsible for their actions. Step back now and let them sink. It may be hard but they need to feel the loss. Keeping on bailing them out and letting them manipulate you will only lead to yet more heartache.
Keep posting here for support.
I wish you luck and all the very best,
Sad x
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