Today I am 111 days gamble free.
Been here before at 111 days, done it and previously failed after 14 years of mind blowing losses & borrowing. I probably could have purchased my house twice with the overall losses I have accumulated.
However I’m determined and I am going to remain disciplined to beat this and become debt free this time.
Due to having some stability & paying £1000 a month off my debts, my multiple credit cards (every card provider available) are offering me 0% balance transfers which is now allowing me to shift my debt around from cards that are running out of the 0% offer period. Ok I am paying a small transfer fee each time but it keeps the interest to zero.
This months pay will see my debt drop below 40k which I never thought would happen. I’m putting in every effort to try and get my debts below 30k by the end of the year 🙏🙏
Thank you to everyone for their support it means so much to know we are all fighting this together.
Stuart, PinkLady, Claire, Tazman, G100, Weirdfish over the years you have continued to support me. THANK YOU.
I will be back at 125 days!!
So good mate. I loved that number on Tuesday at my GA meeting. I said one and paused, everyone looked at me and then said one one. They smiled that I hadn't let myself down, then down and everyone else.
Apparently in November the odds of winning the lottery were less than both of us not relapsing in under a year. Those odds are decreasing every day mate
Hope you are really well mate. 39k ISH debt to pay so maximum of 3 years in June.
Thats amazing King you should be pleased i love your determination which is the main ingredients towards recovery u come back pick yourself up and try again its the only hope this addictions wanted me beat it played with my mind ha ha i got you i want u too have the last laugh and fight it harder then the last time u can do this👍
@lp5vut869c Thank you Stuart. I hope you are well my friend.
I'm good mate, got police interview on Thursday but I'm ok
By the way I will be celebrating 123 if I get there. 120 will be four months for both of us because of February being 28 days
Sorry, did you not know ?.
Fraud.
I thought it might not be reported and that losing my job of 26 years of working 15 hours per day, 7 days per week and on holidays, car, phone and laptops plus reputation was enough but it needs to be finished. I have to face this and whatever a judge decides down the line will be.
My biggest worry is that if I end up in prison then I won't be able to access this site or any of my support network and instead be surrounded by gambling. Anyway that's a story for further down the line
At some point I would like to think I can help one or two people not getting to the point where the chaos of the addiction completely removes all morals to fund it mate. At some point the money runs out, the salary doesn't cover the debt payments however big, no family member has any money left and doesn't believe the lies same with friends and so on. It's no different to a drug addiction where you have to fund it. I'm not saying I don't accept responsibility now and I shouldn't have to pay let alone the harm I've done to my old company I built from scratch but I have two disabled children relying on me, parents in their 80s, one of which is bed ridden so it's not about me throwing myself on the sword. All of this would have been stopped if I wasn't allowed to have 64 different operator accounts and a monthly loss limit 17 X my monthly salary. Anyway the way I look at it is , it's going to be down to a judge and I can't affect that decision. I did it, no one else. I've used my partner's account and she knew nothing about it which adds to the worry. If I get three years I can study for my counselling qualification. It will have a massive affect on my non verbal autistic son who won't understand. I'm the only one that has taught him to understand words although he cannot communicate himself and that kills me.
The only thing I can do is not bet. One day at a time. I've got that 150 milestone in my sights. I can taste it, want it, need it but it's simply each day at a time, just for today, no shortcuts to life, no one can do it but me, I don't trust myself fully but I have it in me, it's another 35 days of hard work on recovery so like that's says it's 35 x individual days, waking up, going through my morning routine, coming on here, doing zooms and face to face GA at least twice per week, connecting to the community inside and outside recovery
@lp5vut869c I’ve said this before Stuart, but I want you to believe it….your strength to fight this is an inspiration.
This like me, is our time. Our time to turn a corner in life, it’s never too late to change for the better.
Good luck and keep strong Stuart
Thank you mate
I have to practice and believe in the serenity prayer. It means more today than ever before to me
Well done King and lovely to read!👏👏👏.
keep doing what you are doing - patience is a virtue and all that. 🥴.
You seem so determined this time around and appear to be much more motivated to stick at this for the long haul 👌💪👊.
Take care and hope you have a lovely week ahead.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Hey King i see gambling addiction like a game of tug and war sure addicts are out numbered the gamblimg corportion has made it extremely difficult and their far too much temptation out their however saying that the people in here all have one thing in common to pull each other back my advice is use as much support as possible the only people who understand this addiction are in recovery groups we are all here to support each other and each day away from a bet u should be proud of yourself
Well said Taz. This community is amazing and it's free to access and 24/7
How are you getting on mate
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