Hi everyone, this is my first post and it already feels better writing this and sharing it with other people who are facing simliar struggles to me. I am only 19 and started relatively early on the betting scene and in the past I've always been able to control myself. Betting was just a bit of fun on a saturday afternoon complemented by the occassional casino trip. A few big wins in the casino (which seemed great at the time) has ultimately created the pathway to where I am today, a greedy, over-condient, self confessed roulette addict. I noticed I couldn't bet the same as I used to, £5 spins have turned into £250 spins. The fact I use the online casino doesn't help as my deposits feel like virtual money as I can't see the money - sounds ridicolous but it's the mindframe I was put in. The week before I had deposited around £1400 and just about got out at even, which really was a signal to STOP.
I wish I had listened, but It's so easy to throw x amount of money onto these betting accounts. The weakness got the better of me again last night and I ended up losing £700 in a matter of minutes because of the arrogant 'I'll win it back' attitude I seem to have. This is a lot of money for me, being a student. I don't know if anyone can relate, but I seemed to get that sick feeling in my stomach, heart pounding, palms sweating and it's a position I never want to return to. All I can think about is the money I've lost and what else I could have spent it on, its unhealthy and I hate myself for what I did.
I'm writing in here to share my experience and to see if anyone has/had the same problem with online casino's and how they wish to tackle it/how they overcame it. The only positive, if there even is one, is that it happened now rather than in a few years where it could have been a much larger sum of money and I could have a family that rely on me. This will hopefully allow me to value money a lot more from now on. It was an irresponsible move which I hope to learn from and hopefully one day return to that recreational, fun gambling.
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