Just lost my last £80 on the Spain Italy match. Was in this situation last week and managed to win £xxx which put me in an ok situation to kick on and get my life back on track. What is wrong with my mind that I have lost all of that in 24 hours. In so much debt and trouble due to gambling. It's been going on for about 7 years. Have basically lost everything. I had my own flat which I sold for a big profit and moreorless gambled the lot. I think I've always been trying to get that back even though it was four years ago now. Have borrowed so much money off my mum and am completely and utterly ashamed of myself. I didn't come from money but my parents worked so hard to give me opportunities like uni etc so I got a decent job, bought a flat and had a good life which I have just thrown away. Now in such a terrible position - unemployed, depressed, unhealthy, not a very nice person. The amount of money I have wasted is absolutely disgusting. To think of the good it could have done in the right hands just kills me. The life I could have given myself and my loved ones compared to the life I have. I don't know what is missing inside me that has made me turn to gambling. Sometimes think I'm just a scumbag. Difficult to live with my behaviour and who I have become. Just hope I can find the strength to change and if people find out what I have done, I will just have to take it on the chin. Any advice would be gratefully received.
I was in the same position as you yesterday morning, I lost every penny I had.it’s only been 24 hours and I haven’t gambled and I already feel slightly better. Take each day as it comes, I know exactly how you are feeling and it’s absolutely horrible. Every day will get slightly better trust me. Tomorrow I’m going back to the gym for the first time in weeks. The money is gone and you will never win it back, none of us will. But from this day on just try and be strong! Start walking or swimming that’s what I’m going to do!Â
You need to cut out your loses and let go of the past. Don't think about winning back your loses because gambling money is loss money. Especially, don't involve any loans into it as you are adding more interest to loss money. It is not an income. Gambling should never be made into an income. That win is a emotional delusion that you will win further but.. the house has the mathematical edge and will always wins in the end, long-term. So you see, It doesn't matter if you win or lose in gambling, it is a drug designed to give you the feeling of happiness and suck you in long-term and eat you slowly from the inside out and boy did it do that to you like it did to me.Â
You are not a scumbag, you have been groomed by the gambling companies and your mind is stuck in the past chasing those loses. It sounds like you want to change your behavior and for that, you need to forgive yourself first, whats lost is lost in the past, forgive yourself for the sins you have made to borrow money, the guiltiness of losing it all from a flat sale, the job loss, the long nights gambling, the emotional drains of crying, laughing, being angry. It was a fun game till it lasted. At the end, it wasn't all for nothing. It was a lesson in life to not play with your money. Take what you have learned in the past and apply it to the the present and future now.
I would strongly recommend you to talk to someone about it, do the Gamcare self-help course, read these gambling stories on the forum and take what you can out of it, reach out to the the advice line and use the Gamcare live chat forums as it has helped me immensely. Well done for posting, keep seeking help, don't keep it inside you and make some changes into your life step by step.
You mentioned you are unhealthy, start eating healthily then, go to the gym, go walk like the others have said. Baby steps. Lets go back to the basics, health comes first. Eat healthy, Sleep well, then find/work. Take everyday as an improvement, learn to be grateful for everyday things, even small things like having good parents to take care of your back, you will slowly get better as it did when I improved my basics.
Without gamcare, i certainly would have carried on gambling, please use this website to the full extent to help your recovery. I hope this post inspires you to start your recovery.
I watched that match don't want to claim it was fixed but it was a very bizarre game of football towards the end it looked like neither side really wanted to win it and the REF made a lot of strange decisions tooÂ
Anyway re the gambling life will start getting better but only when you allow it too
So you start with 30 days then 60 days and keep progressing from there
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