As you have probably guessed by the title of the thread, today is my 17th day free from gambling, yay, go me!!
What I am finding the hardest part is not the gambling, it's the lonliness of doing it all alone. My gambling first appeared as a problem for me and within my relationship 6 years ago, and I just wish I had dealt with it properly then when I had the support of my wife and family, but like so many others I didnt really think it was a problem and thought it was easy to beat so I didn't fully try to beat it until I was in the position I am in now, where I have lost everything.
So many other CG will be aware, the road to recovery is full of ups and downs, but this bank holiday weekend has been a real down for me.
I really just wish i had my family around to just hug me and tell me it will be ok, and one day this will be a long forgotten nightmare, but hey ho, that's the choice I made when I went on the website/in the shop/on the racecourse.
The thing that is annoying me most I think is that I really don't want to gamble now, even when I am at my lowest, so why did I bother when I had everything still??
I will beat this, and I will be strong again one day, but for now I am at rock bottom.
Welcome plum
As they say if you're at rock bottom the only way is up.
Like yourself there is a lot of people on this forum who have payed the ultimate by losing there family.
Pick yourself up and show your family you can change.
Don't just hope it all goes away
Get out there and bust your ba lls
And work it out
Show them some proper changes
Attend ga. Sort some counselling
Just don't give up on yourself
All the best
Thanks for your words Deano. I'm feeling much more positive now after some good family time today.thanks to "my girl" I'm no longer feeling so alone in this battle!
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