Lost over 1000 pounds during the course of today. All because I was chasing a 100 pounds loss from yesterday. I look at that and I think, "what the hell was I thinking?!" But the truth is, that this is the hundredth time this has happened and the hundredth time I've felt this wave of deep depression and regret. I can't control myself, and yes I will finally admit it now... it's an addiction. It's a never ending, vicious circle. And all those who say that gambling is the devils work.. well I may not be entirely religious but I have to agree with you. 🙁
Yes it is the most vicious of vicious circles. I've lost thousands chasing a £20 loss before despite the fact I could easily afford to lose £20 and I would more than likely have forgotten about it a few days later. It's like a madness takes over, all you want in the moment is your money back.
That's probably why gambling is so addictive. Gambling and negative feelings fuel each other unless we can find a way to break the cycle. The tools are here to help you if you really want to stop.
It's got to a point now where it could really put strain on my relationship. I just can't jeopardise that. It's all very well me being under extreme financial pressure due to my own actions... but I can't put the people I care about under the same pressures. This is the main reason I really want help to kill the addiction, for the benefit of others... but it will also have a massive impact on my own life as a result
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Thankyou joydivider 🙂
So last night I won on a sports accumulator bet I had open with an online bookies. This is despite having just lost that 1000... this is the addiction thing as you have all no doubt experienced... the insatiable urge to win win win.
Anyway, I turned 50 quid into 400, as I have so many times before.
This time its different... its my final bet. I withdrew my 400 winnings, and as soon as it hit my bank account this morning, I put it towards my credit card balance (all thanks to gambling in the first place).
Normally I would have rebet with my pending withdrawal. Not this time though. Ok so im 600 down this time round, plus thousands from years gone by... but there HAS TO be a point where enough is enough.
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Good work on just withdrawing the money and putting it toward your debt rather than doing what we are all guilty of - cancelling the withdraw before it even gets to the bank!
Keep that good feeling in your mind and don't be tempted to chase anymore. You can do this without the risk and it'll feel even better than getting a win.
Stay strong! 🙂
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