Hi all
I'm here because I can't stop crying and I'm so disgusted with myself.
Over the course of the past few days I won £472 gambling on online games and then in the space of less than an hour this evening I have lost it all. It was sitting in my account as a withdrawal and I reversed it to gamble with again thinking I could make more money.
I know it might not seem much to those who gamble bigger but I absolutely can't afford to lose that amount of money. I have a young baby to take care of and have no more money coming in for weeks and weeks. Today I really thought I was on a lucky streak and then started chasing my losses and have ended up here with £0 in the bank. I can't let my partner find out and just needed to tell someone.
I am in shock I just can't believe I would be so stupid.
K
Hi Kt,
I know how you feel. I have so many times gambles my entire wages and all in all I am in £21k debt. The first step is to exclude all of your gambling accounts online, the next is to install a blocking software, then finally seek some counselling. Gamcare have so many helpful people on forums, and also it can help set you with counselling. My biggest piece of advice is to try and accept losses in the past. You will never win it back, and even if you do, you will only pour it back into the slots. Take this horrid feeling and use to motivate you to never went to feel like this again. You can do it, you can move forward just make sure you have all the support in place.
It’s hesrtbreaking. I totally sympathise. The best thing to do is to not gamble again though and work on a plan where you can get a bit of money from to last you till next payday. Do you have a mum or someone who would lend you money for the baby food and nappies etc. I lost 1k today doing the same thing. You do think you are on a lucky streak and I totally get you. But they just sucking your money out of you. 🙁
Sorry to see this. But also in a way it is good to see you on here so quickly. You say it may not seem a lot to those who have lost more. But that is how we all stated, just a little, then a little more, then just enough to make back what we lost. And it goes on and on.
So it's great that you posted here and realised immediately that you can't carry on with this. My advice is don't even try to win back what you've lost. Even if you ever did, you would only gamble it again thinking you're on another 'roll'. You did that the first time and lost it all, that's enough to show you that you can't gamble.
The financial side is another issue for you. But at this point it's temporary. In a couple of months you can be back to normal. Seek advice, tell someone you trust. Work out the minimum you need to live on. Ask your partner if he can contribute by buying some shopping for the month. The main thing is you can feee your family and survive the month. Then put this event in a box, a big yellow box marked 'danger!' And never open it again.
Ok, not a big deal, a bit uncomfortable but it is not the end of the world. Don't beet you self up. it happened to all of us, we know the feeling, we emphasise.
What I would do:
1. Register to GAMSTOP immediately, I mean right now, so in few months this would not happen again
2. If you do not want your partner to find out, I understand you. Call your mother, father, sibling, friend...anyone who you think is very close to you and tell them the story so they can help you with the mess.
What other people will suggest is:
1. Exclude from everywhere
2. Tell the truth to your partner no mater how painful and embarrassing it is.
3. Start going to GA meetings
I would suggest to take their advise, because they know what are they talking about and they've been exactly where you are.
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