Enough is enough

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Day 3 for me and I'm feeling a lot more focussed although it's early days I have been doing a lot of thinking and sorting out my debts paid 2 credit cards today and dine a budget for the month until my dmp is set up. Thankyou for the replys appreciate all of them and I am trying my best to move forward by posting on here everyday is helping me and reading through the diaries. I have also made plans to meet up with a few friends over the next week or so to try to keep me busy and get back into the real world doing normal stuff x

Day 5 and feeling in a much better frame of mind and a better mother also, I have spent more time with my children and treated myself to a magazine that cost £1.35 to keep me occupied this evening it's madness that something that cost so little seems such a treat as I never spend money on myself yet will blow hundreds of pounds in a few hours on the slots. My relationship seems better with my husband as the gambling fog has lifted slightly and can feel my mood has improved. Every day I wake up still with the worry of the debt but not with a need to gamble and is so nice going to bed at night knowing that I havnt given a penny to those vile slots that have only and will only cause me nothing but misery x

Welcome Mum 08 to the Gamcare Forums.

You have taken a positve step by speaking on the forums and starting to diaries your recovery from problem gambling. You may find it useful to start posting in the Recovery Diary forum by starting your own using http://www.gamcare.org.uk/forums/recovery-diaries#

You should feel positive by the steps you have taken so far such as using the blocking software to restrict access, whilst you take other steps to understand and change the problem gambling behaviour. You have expressed an intrest in accessing counselling support, and would like to make you aware that you can access counselling services through our services.

The helpline and netline advisors are available for emotional support and helpful information, such as information of local counselling services and can facilitate referrals for counselling appointments, you can call them on 0808 8020 133

Thank you for your post, take care.

Maria

2 weeks today feeling so much better but still having urges now and again but I've learnt to block them out and found by keeping myself busy helps also I have not touched a penny in my bank account which I'm very proud of as normally a soon as there's money in there it goes on those vile slots been living off cash which I find is best for me so I know what I've got to spend every week on food petrol etc still early days but amazed how much better I'm feeling after just 2 weeks I've still got the huge debt on my shoulders but in process of setting up a dmp with step change so once that's up and running il feel better and in my brain trying to see it as just another bill going out every month which needs paying as if I dwell on it all the money lost then I will never be able to move forward

hi mum

i know how you feel, ive been gambling since i was 12, im now 40. i earn a decent wage but most of it goes on online gambling. i have. partner of 16 years and 3 sons, it just seems my whole life has been geared aroung gambling, if i get a bet up the nightbefore i start work i would ring in too say i cant make it in, then just lay in bed all day gambling, i really need to stop this vicious cycle, it torments me. i just want to be able to live a normal life without gambling. macker.

It really is a vicious circle and i know how you feel I am glad I have stopped but I have to take each day as a step at a time as I relapsed a few times before and I'm scared of this happening again I never got anything out of gambling it didn't make me happy I don't know why I did it but I don't think anybody can answer why they do it. I found reading on this site helpful and keeping my self busy doing stuff outside my comfort zone as when I used to gamble I'd stay up all night and in the house all day feeling depressed those days I look back on and it makes me feel sick don't ever want to feel like that again so I must keep plodding on we can beat this its just making those changes and putting the blocks in place