Last night was the last time I will ever hand over my money to an online bingo site.
My biggest addicition is slot machines on the online bingo, 1 game in particular. I have been playing the game for around 5 years now, have won a the jackpot (as in £1200) 4 times plus a few smaller "wins". The amount of money I have deposited onto these sites in 5 years I can't even begin to imagine.
It has got to the stage now where I do NOT find it enjoyable, not in the slightest, yet I feel like I have to keep playing. In the past few weeks I feel as though I have been playing constantly, depositing £20 at a time. Usually the £20 lasts 5 minutes if that, then I deposit again as another £20 wouldn't hurt. Before you know it I have deposited £600 in 2 days. Ridiculous. Over the past month I have probably played close to £3,000. Won back £1,200 but spent even more looking for a further win!
I have finally realised that I actually do have a gambling addiction, mainly to slot machines. I don't want to gamble mine and my husband's money away and only I can stop myself. So from now, all accounts are closed. My husband knows a little of the problem but he thinks I stopped in January after I lost our savings. I will have to sit down and tell him about losing them again since then. Luckily we both earn a decent wage, but we are still living month to month because of this ridiculous thing I have!!! Time to change.
Wish me luck please I am going to need it.
Annie
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Hi Annie
Slots are my online downfall too, it's so easy to lose and win and then lose again in such a short space of time?! I've self excluded and my new tactic is not have excess miney in the bank, just pay bills as an when to remove the risk, at least the big I get and urge I won't actually be able to deposit anyway. We can beat this!
Best wishes and good luck to you 🙂
Hi Annie new on here yesterday and online gambling is my problem, I don'tknow how many times I have done exactly the same just £10, another £10, £23, £33 and before I know it I am looking wondering how I have made over 30 deposits and how am I going to live for the month, or tell my husband, no actually honesty how can I hide this from my husband. Good luck and do what I am going to, take advantage of all the help and support I can get from the people who luckily still love me, and this site from people who understand.
Hi guys. I am new to this. I have known for a couple of years I am a gambling addict. I have known I needed to stop, but I've always put off fixing my urge for gambling because I thought I was strong minded enough to do it myself. I am wrong. I can not ever gamble again. That self loathing feeling (everytime I gamble) has taken over my life. I used to be known as a party animal, lots of friends and really outgoing. Now I sit alone in my flat while my partner goes out, I am always moody/depressed and hate other people.
My addiction is to the roulette wheel, in particular in the local bookmakers. There is just so many of them that even when I move to an affluent village there are 3 of them. I can't escape them and I don't even try to fight it. Some of the things I've done to hide my addiction from my partner is pathetic and I do feel ashamed when I think about it. This is me saying no more. w**********l, David Pluck and Ladbrookes can go to hell from now on. No longer will I let them screw me over with their FOBT's and claim its just a game of luck.
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Hi Little Annie
Today is also my first day of no more gambling mine is slightly different to yours as i bet on horses and roulette. Ive tried many times before but never been down this route im hoping sharing with others and helping others and them helping me will help me beat this addiction. Like you my spouse knows i have a problem and trys to help but she works away mon-fri and thats when its real bad. Im doing a dairy and im going to post it day to day on here, hpefully for help and to help others.
Hi Annie,
I'm new here as well, like you i'm addicted to online bingo and especially the slot machines. The slot games are such an easy and exciting way to keep you occupied between bingo games especially when you win and I saw it as an easy way to get money so you could max out bingo games. Except that it soon takes over and you are trying to win bingo games so you can have put another excessive amount of money on a slot machine spin.
Even when you win a large amount you keep playing to win more, my downfall was a certain Monopoly game and my goal was the mini game where sometimes you won a lot of money, If i just reached that I could get all my money back no matter what it cost or what I won in the meantime. I'd deposit low amounts and say to myself that I would stop when I had spend it but when it went in 1 minute i'd be depositing again..and again and soon even winning wasn't enough as I wanted more to withdraw (which I never did) - Can't even imagine what i've lost over the years and although the amounts I have to pay with aren't as much as some other people its still having the same destructive effect. The depression and anger spiral when you lost it all, feeling so worthless and stupid at having just giving in again. My OH knows I have a problem and i've tried to explain but it doesn't really get it and doesn't understand why I keep playing, so i play in secret and I'm really angry with him after a loss and he doesn't know why.
I think what's worse is when you see people win big on jackpots in bingo or slots and you think I want to do that, they are so lucky but no one really thinks about how that person who just won could be just like us and seriously in trouble. I don't even enjoy it anymore but it's been my life for so many years I honestly dont know how i'll not come back to it.
Well done Annie for closing your accounts! Good luck to you and staying off them, don't be tempted to sign up to any others like I was. A change of address & new card unfortuantely encouraged me to sign up to even more for 'New Member Bonuses' for sites i'd managed to leave which let into another spiral. I know I need to close ALL accounts but I can't bring myself to do it just yet - for now I want to be in control of myself and not WANT to go back.
I'm going to stop today as you are and hopefully get through the month without a relapse! We can all do this, this site is a miracle in itself as I was feeling very alone.
Best of luck Annie and everyone else who posted.
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