Finally facing the truth

Hello, my name is stuart, i thought it was finally time i signed up.

So it all started a few years ago when i discovered online gambling, i had accounts with all major bookmakers and would gamble at them all. After losing at one i would deposit into another. Started out not too much money, before, after a few months it was all my money. I self excluded from all of them however would still gamble using my mothers account every so often (after giving her the money in cash) which allowed me what i thought was control as i wasnt spending much. I have now recently re-opened one of my old accounts and have fallen back into my old ways, i dont have a job at the moment and get benefits every 2 weeks which i spend all of gambling because the urge of the last 2 weeks not gambling is terrible. After chasing the last of my money and losing yesterday i am left with the sickening feeling of having no money again for 2 weeks and having to come up with another lie as to where my money has went. I think this week is the first realisation of my problem has set in as i don't think im even doing it to win a little extra money anymore.