It has to stop now

I joined the site a long time ago but have came back after a major relapse. I wish you all the luck in the world. I am a mother of 3 who Still saw fit to blow every penny including bill money and have nowhere at all to turn. I feel a total failure, I am a mess x

Hi join the club ,I hope to stop too

I feel a mess too but I guess messes can be tidied up...try again I am on day 3

Hi jw1976 I've done the same rent money the lot but at least we're on here getting things sorted and things will get sorted if we stay gamble free, stay strong and keep posting on here, have you tried therapy I had my first session on Thursday and I feel it's gonna be very helpful

Where did you get therapy.....I have an app I use to relieve anxiety

Day 4 still feel really down no gambling. Just constant headache

I got referred to therapy via gamcare if you go on livechat they'll help you

A gamble free weekend achieved, it wouldn't sound much of an achievemepeoplemost people who i know but that's why I come on here, only day 7 but the greater the distance I get between now and my last bet the better, thanks to everyone who posts on here it all helps

Hi AlbiOn and ty all. its horrible reading all the stories on here but heartening to know I'm not alone. Iv already been to rock bottom and back again and yet I still relapse. Wot will it take for me to realise?. I have considered therapy but with 3 kids and 2 jobs I just can't see where I can fit it in. I gamble mostly at night. Not even happy with spending the lot the other day, the first bit f money I get today....Iv done it again!. Wot a Joke. I'm justifying it that I'm chasing money... If I don't have enough to pay everything how much worse can it be? I'm not a stupid person yet I AM! Wheres the mentality come from? Again I'm left with nothing
new rules for payday loans which were my only option previously, mean I literally can't get credit anywhere. Maybe a good thing in the long run but not today!!!! Good luck on your.journey to recovery everyone. I hope u r stronger than me x

Hello and welcome ... I am not stronger than you. I had a lapse myself this weekend. I will say it was caught very deeply in the payday loan cycle until I couldn't get any more payday loans. Then I get help with a company that helps a payday loans had me close my bank account and they deal with them unsettling them. Getting them out of my bank account and getting some of my paycheck back, since the payments and interest are so high, help me get back on my feet again. I'm still gambling. But at least part of my paycheck is mine. The fees on the payday loans literally exceeded my paycheck at the worst. So I feel very strongly for you on that front. Can you look into a company to help settle the payday loans and deal with them and close the account that they're taking the payments out of? Sometimes we have to do extreme things when we're in a cycle like that.

Hi jenilee. I was managing to pay the loans each month (then borrowing again!) until this month. When I'm feeling stronger I will ring them to request the interest is frozen and offer a repayment plan. Companies r good to use to reduce the pressure but they add their own fees on which doesn't really help. The debt isn't that bad to be honest but its the fact I can't get a new one so I have no access to money at all. I'm worried how I'm.going to get to work son to school etc etc I guess I should have thought of all this b4. And yet I will forget when I do get paid again. This illness plays with your brain. I'm beginning to feel I'm gonna end up in the funny farm. X

I'm in a very similar situation jw I've got a month before I get paid again and I've gambled away everything so it's gonna be a real struggle but its all self inflicted so I'm just gonna have to manage, what bothers me the most is that I've done it so many times before but put myself through it again and again, I hope everything works out for you, just keep on here as much as you can and try hard to not let it happen again, best of luck

Thankyou AlbiOn. We never seem to learn do we?! Family and friends have stopped helping me, they think if I suffer and have to do without then maybe I will start helping myself. It seems I have a very short memory and do it time and time again. If I had a lottery win I would log on here and help as many people as possible. I'm certain that 90% of us r compulsive only because of the debt we carry x good luck huN. Let me know how ur getting on x

Yeah jw it sounds like your in a very similar situation to me, I've been bailed out by my family and friends countless times so much that I wouldn't have the front to ask them again even though I'm in a desperate situation, I have spoken to my landlord today and hopefully I have something in place with them now but I think its gonna be a very tough 3 months at least I'm even gonna have to cycle to work because I've no train fare, it will get better though I'm sure of that we just need to stay gamble free and it will fix itself

I am pleased u are sorted with your landlord. Nothing else matters as long as you keep your home. I'm a.nervous wreck at min. Im suffering really bad anxiety and panic. I really can't see any way out of this mess. Keep posting and let me know how ur getting on. And good luck x