It has to stop now

I know how you must be feeling jw I'm still not out of trouble with the landlord and I owe money to friends but there is always a way out of the mess we create for ourselves with this disease, there is lots of help out there if you look hard enough and I am sure it will get better, I'm just focusing on staying gamble free and hopefully things will fall into place and my life will become manageable, keep me updated and I hope the anxiety and panic attacks calm down I'm sure they will x

Just checking In on how u r doing AlbiOn?. I was thrown a lifeline from a complete stranger on Tuesday. It may not have seemed alot to him but I actually think he has saved my life. It made me realise just wot on earth I have been doing and how low I have gone. I'm feeling much more positive today. I owe that young lad to stay strong and do this. I hope things are feeling better for you and you are staying strong x

Just checking In on how u r doing AlbiOn?. I was thrown a lifeline from a complete stranger on Tuesday. It may not have seemed alot to him but I actually think he has saved my life. It made me realise just wot on earth I have been doing and how low I have gone. I'm feeling much more positive today. I owe that young lad to stay strong and do this. I hope things are feeling better for you and you are staying strong x

That sounds good jw and it does sound like your in a much better place now which is great to hear, I'm much better now thanks things are starting to take shape, let's just make sure it never happens again hey x

It has to be the worst addiction in the world. Nobody understands because it's not physical. There's no pill u can take or no methadone to replace it with. I paid some bills yesterday and went shopping today after work. It felt good putting food in the cupboards instead of losing all my money and wondering wot I was going to do next. We CAN do this. Keep in touch x

I just had to get off my chest what happened on Tues and how that stranger saved me. I went to the casino with 150 pound I could I'll afford to Spend. My target was 500 to pay immediate bills and honour commitments I had made to my family. I sat there playing blackjack in high spirits, cracking jokes with fellow players and doing my best to hide my desperation at the win that I HAD to have. It was 2.30 am and my family were sleeping at home. The young lad who was half my age so no sexual attraction, asked me to go for a cigarette. While we were there he asked me how.much more I needed/wanted to win b4 I would go home. I was currently at 350 so I honestly said with embarrassment that I needed 500 minimum. He was winning himself but that is irrelevant. He went to the cashpoint and withdrew 150 pd. He handed it to me and asked that I took it and went home to my family. He refused to give me any contact details or any way to pay him back. I'm embarrassed at taking the help from a stranger but I did leave and I won't be going back. I honestly feel my mam sent him.from heaven to make me realise wot.on earth.I have been doing. I was suicidal. I'm far.from out.Of.debt but.I'm positive. And determined. We.can do this.X

That's good jw you've been very lucky there you could have quite easily just blown the £150 and found yourself in a worse place again so you need to count your blessings and make sure you don't get yourself in trouble again which will happen if you go to the casino again, I've got a busy day planned with my son to keep me occupied, stay strong jw it has to stop, good luck and I hope you have a nice weekend x

Hello everyone just checking in after a gamble free weekend, it's 14 days now gamble free but I must admit that today was tough, I fell into a little bit of cash and was tempted to have a bet, I've had attempts at abstinence before but always fell down eventually, usually when money becomes available but this time I'm going to be strong and realise it can't happen anymore, no more gambling I am determined

Good for u hun. The test is always when we have money. It's not.hard whEn we don't even Have access to any cash to do it. Stay strong and enjoy the bit money u have. Enjoy being stress free and enjoy the feeling of winning this battle x

It isn't just that, when I gamble it takes over my whole way of thinking even if it's a £2 bet it gets me on to a gerbils wheel where I end up losing untold amounts, it has to be complete abstinence now, good luck everyone xx

Hi Albion100

I have actually got the same problem as you.. I do get monthly pay as u, as soon as pay day comes my money would be gone and have to borrow to pay my bills.. I had to confess to my parents.. I was so scared but they have been very supportive.. I have now self exclude myself, cancel my debit card and seeing a counsellor. Im also on debt management plan. I have not gambled for 9 days. To be honest I haven't got any urges to gamble at the moment. My only worry is when pay day comes.. Hopefully I don't feel the urge to gamble. I don't want to let myself or my family down.. I hope you get over come ur problem xx

Sadgirl86 that's terrible would you like my bank card details? 😉

I think in all honesty that one bet sets us all on a downward spiral. I agree it has to be total abstinence. I tried rewarding myself with a flutter a week after payday, I told myself it was fine as long as my bills were paid first. It wasn't fine! We all need to find wot works for us but u r doing so well.

We'll done sadgirl too for taking control. How about asking your parents to control your money come payday? I kno it feels childish but better safe than sorry in the early stages x

Well done albion100, it's best to keep all money out of arms reach, iv decided that I can't allow myself a little bet, because it will lead to more!!! I'm on day 14 same as you, and all temptation is totally out of reach. Every penny goes to my wife. She feels bad that I got no money on me, but I told her it's gotta be this way. And for two weeks, it's worked.stay strong mate!!

That's the best way shamrock we've seen what happens when we have money and it will only get worse, best of luck pal