Hey guys. I am 22 years old and yesterday i lost 12k on online crypto casino in just 5mins... It all started around 7 years ago with 1 eur bets on sports and then gradually became worse. Last 3 months were the worst.
I had around 8k in crypto at that time. So when i got bored a played sports bets and baccarat. I chose baccarat cause its "the best odds" its 50/50 and thats how i calmed myself before betting. When betting on sports i couldnt bet 1 eur anymore but 50 eur and even that number didnt feed my urge. sometimes i bet 200-300 eur on one bet slip and then i stress whole game before the game finishes.Â
For better context lets rewind time 2 days back. i played baccarat and i always start with 50 eur, then if i lose i double it and so on.. i bet 3k and won back xxxx. I kind of liked the adrenaline rush at that point and was laughing cause i won but yesterday, one of my worst nightmares happened. I was around xxx eur in profit and i said one more hand and if i win i will stop. I won but of course i didnt stop. then later i lost a 30 eur hand and just because of 30 eur i happened to lose 12k. I bet on "player" for 7-8 straight hands and i never thought this can happen to me but it did. there was only "banker" showing so i lost 12k.
Thats around 8 months of hardwork for me. i try to calm myself by saying that i still have xxxx in my bank and that i dont need money right now but in my mind i am so crushed. Then i ask myself why do i even do this to myself? I have a loving family, everyone around me cares for me and i have a roof under my head and i still put myself in this S****y situations.
I will try to stop now and hopefully this 12k loss saved my gambling addiction in a long run. i really hope thats what will happen. I told my parents about few times i bet few thousand euros and won back and they were really stressed, but i always told them the time i won. Now that i lost 12k i dont know if i should tell them. I just hope they wont get stressed and i dont want them to keep thinking about my losses. But i really think i need someone to tell them this. Hopefully writing in this forum will help me.
Thanks for reading this.
Mubelune
Hi Mubelene
Thank you for sharing your story. I suppose the question you maybe need to ask yourself is how much you want to stop. The fact that you are only 22 gives you a chance to have a life gamble free but it's your choice. I gambled for five decades. At 22 I had numerous big loss days and just carried on. It took me 34 more years to give up. It's cost me money, years of time that I can't ever get back, harm to my mental health, my job, my reputation, my car and most importantly harmed my family and friends. That's just me and you are at a fork in the road. Left turn is a life of gambling, right side is a life without gambling. No one can tell you which road to take but after reading your topic, there isn't a third road of responsible gambling. I reached that fork last year. I can't bet responsibly and decided to change my life and remove the chaos. I'm unable to bet ever again and I'm happy to say that. Too many people think they can control the addiction but it's all or nothing
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Stuart
i echo that great thought from stuart about there bering no third option.... if u gamble like that now theres no option to carry on responsibly gambling in my opinion..... youre super young if u stop now it will never be an issue for u or ur parents if u continue it will
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all the best
Wow. Thanks for your long reply. I am happy for you that you decided to quit. I agree with you. i cant gamble responsibly no more. Its all or nothing. I need to get my head straight and stop. I hope you are doing well now. I cant imagine how stressful it can be to gamble for such a long time. Thanks for sharing your experience it helps me a lot to realize that i dont want to live a life as a gambling addict. Thanks again and hope you are doing well.
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