I have been a gambling free for almost 2 years and for some reason today I started gambling at 8.am. I gambled till about 6 and have no clue why I gambled. I'm really confused and I hope I can work out why. I have been gambling for 25 years and have been stopped for 19months this time. I've always had a reason for it. I'm worried I'm going to continue as I'm thinking well u have let your self down why not continue. I'm hoping I have the will power to Astarte at day 1 again.
Hope you managed to stay away, today's the first day I've actually admitted I wa problem but can't see away out at the minute, how did you manage to stay away from it for so long?
Hi reggie I had counselling at gamcare and joined a group but these finished last year and have no help since. I hope I will be able to get back on the straight and narrow really soon as I had the most peaceful time while not gambling.
Hey Chasegirl, I hope you managed to nip your urges in the bud after Thursday's relapse and it's all now behind you.
I really felt what you wrote. It's the unexplainable strangeness of our human brains that we can go for ages without even thinking about a bet and then BAM! out of the blue, suddenly an uncontrollable urge to try our luck. (And the fact it hit you around 8am just goes to show how weird we all are).
Exactly the same thing happened to me in March after nearly 5 years free. I came in from a great Saturday afternoon in the pub with good friends, felt really relaxed, content, then suddenly a little dark cloud thought on my blue sky. Before I knew it I'd signed up to a new site and bet too much.
I still can't fully analyse what it was that day that made me do it.
It just goes to show we can never get complacent. There is no 'cure'. There is only willpower and putting measures in place so in the rare moments when these urges strike there is no way to act on them.
Hope you are back on the horse after your fall and it was only a minor blip. What helped me was to remember how bad I used to feel, win or lose - always lose eventually because I couldn't stop.
These days if I'm desperate for a buzz I stick my little finger in the electricity wall socket instead: feels real painful and ends up with me feeling the same way as losing all my money, but also gives me the same short-lived adrenaline rush as gambling, but doesn't cost me as much money or self-respect in the long term!
Molehole x
(PS / I just read that back. I'm joking about plug socket in case anyone with a sense-of -humour-bypass took me literally. Shouldn't need saying of course, but you can never be too sure these days) Mx
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