Phil?

Hi Phil , hope your ok buddy as just saw CW 's post and realised your diary's gone ? , I'm assuming something to do with the other day , Or maybe just too much Icecream from your birthday ? . Phil if you see this then don't be a stranger , I've had spat's on here with so many people I've lost count , it happens but we make up and move on regardless , that's what recovery's about discovering who we and dealing with our blunted emotions , after so many years of gambling I sure as hell didn't know who I was and it took me 9 months to get to where I'm starting to feel comfortable with my emotions !. If I'm wrong about the reason then apologies but either way I hope to see you posting again soon !

Take care fella ! Alan

Hi guys. I'm back. Needed a bit of time out to reflect on some things including my own behaviour. So a new name and hopefully a new Phil. I've got a temper and sometimes I react without thinking. Anyway I will be starting a new diary shortly. Still gamble free - one day at a time.

Welcome back Phil. I noticed all your posts and everything had gone so I can only guess at what happened there

Anyway we wont go into that. The only thing that needs to be said is that if gambling can ruin people it will certainly cause some friction on the forum sometimes. I had to learn to remain calm and that some people will word things as they see it at the time. I cant always get involved for my own peace of mind in recovery.

I would still probably flag a post for gamcare to look at if someone was talking about professional gambling and huge wins. Its confusing talk and I am clear in my own mind what gambling is. I understand its an open forum and gamcare make the decisions on moderating

I have found gamcare to be highly professional. They said I was welcome back when I had deleted all my posts in a huff. I feel bad about that but it was my total confusion at the time. They sometimes have a difficult job to do

So all the best and I know your heart is in the right place and you are doing remarkably well in recovery

Best wishes

Good to see you resurface Phil !

Look forward to catching up soon !

Alan

Thank you JD and Alan. I asked GamCare to delete my account which they did. On reflection I realised I needed the forum in my armoury amongst other things. I don't want to lose my temper with people and I certainly shouldn't have said some of the things I said. I think recovery should be a pleasant journey with gratitude, grace and humility. I lost sight of that for a while and having a bit of time out was good for me.

Welcome back Phil

Phil_72 wrote:

Thank you JD and Alan. I asked GamCare to delete my account which they did. On reflection I realised I needed the forum in my armoury amongst other things. I don't want to lose my temper with people and I certainly shouldn't have said some of the things I said. I think recovery should be a pleasant journey with gratitude, grace and humility. I lost sight of that for a while and having a bit of time out was good for me.

Journey on

I feel like I should have reined myself in but if I keep dwelling I can't move forward. I said something about the 13th step which was so out of order and if that person reads this post can I say how sorry I am. We may not always agree but this is a democratic forum. One day at a time another day without the monkey on my back.

I feel like I should have reined myself in but if I keep dwelling I can't move forward. I said something about the 13th step which was so out of order and if that person reads this post can I say how sorry I am. We may not always agree but this is a democratic forum. One day at a time another day without the monkey on my back.

I had this problem before double posting without realising it. Sorry.