Hello All,
Wanted to try first step by creating thread here.
I had really hard year last year, devorced and had to find new apartment.
Ive been always gambling less and much and less and much but its been something i was able to handle.
For example i never had to took loans or anything to that and it was something i was able to keep even visible. Of course as all of us i guess there are times that we didnt tell exact amount of money that one stupid gambling day took, but still - it was some kind of manageable.
After devorce i didnt even realize but i filled the emptyness and really bad angry feelings from it with Gambling. My biggest passion were sports betting. I used to love to watch Ice Hockey and Football without bets but well, im afraid am i able to watch even without bets at these days. I have lost i would say 6k since last July and now 5 days till this day i have lost 800. And its so mind****ing because i dont even realize that amount of money at the moment when im in Gambling mood, it just goes. And after i found my sence again i cant believe this world to be tru.
For example im not at the situation, where i dont have money to go have some nice time with friends, which i have done a lot also since devorce.
And sickest part of me is that i feel i could leave this world before i would feel the embarassing feelings by asking help for this.
Its been really nice that here have been stories to share and to pick some valuable points from that.
I can live with the fact ive been really big idiot by ruining my money things like this, but ill have to cut this now or i will be in troubles. I can manage this point yet, but not more.
Edit: I really much try to end this now. Day 1 starting today. Took clearing drunk yesterday and now i start my journey to freedom from such demon as gambling addiction
Br,
Jounas
Dear JblAdoct11,
Welcome to the GamCare forum and well done for taking the step to make your first post. We're glad you've found reading the stories here helpful. Just to let you know, we've moved your post to the Introductions section of the website as we feel it will get more responses there.
It sounds like the gambling is already causing problems and you've come to a point where it cannot go on because the problems are getting too much for you to manage.
It's worrying that you feel you would 'leave this world' before you would ask for help. But it's good that you are at least asking for help here, and in time, you may feel able to get some support closer to home. If you are having any feelings at all about leaving this world, please contact your doctor, even if you can't face telling anyone else. It's important that you look after your mental health.
If you are in England, Scotland or Wales, you would be very welcome to contact us for 1:1 support on the Freephone HelpLine 0808 80 20 133 or chat to us on the NetLine. If you're outside these areas, there might be support in your country - you can find more resources at www.gamblingtherapy.net or at the bottom of the following page of our website: https://www.gamcare.org.uk/about-us/links-other-support-agencies
Do keep using the forum and let us know your progress.
Best wishes
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