Hi all, I have struggled on and off with gambling for 12 years now, it’s taken away my self worth,dignity,time and thousands of pounds. I am now in a huge amount of debt that is overwhelming but today I’ve installed Gamban as its pay day, had my first session with a councillor 2 days ago and joined a group meeting this week too. I need to do this for myself and get back to a life where gambling doesn’t control me.Â
The guilt and shame comes in huge waves at times, especially knowing money is going to be really tight over the next 5/6 years to pay these debts off. I don’t qualify for a DMP as after bills/debts etc, they say I still have enough income. I just worry if unexpected expenses crop up but will have to deal with that if it arises.Â
I’ve learnt my triggers have been loneliness mainly and blocking out a traumatic event that gambling masked, I know I need to work on the root causes of why I felt the need for escapism.Â
Not sure on why I’m posting but maybe it’s another step to recovery.
Hi Jane
Thank you for your share, I enjoyed reading it - not sure that quite sounds right but if you read my recovery diary on here called "My story" I am sure you will understand
You sound really determined and have started to get some good things in place. I presume along with blocking your bank cards from gambling transactions you have self excluded with Gamstop and downloaded Gamban on your devices ?Â
The fact that you have joined a meeting and started counselling tells me that you realise you can't do this on your own. My suggestion in case you want it, is that along with will power you do need to build a support network of people and things you can call upon when you need to.
I would also suggest coming to the chatrooms on here at 8pm each night. They are text only chats so no cameras in case you are worried about that. We have a great chat and support each other each night.
Also, if you haven't already then it's worth clicking the button, talk to someone. The advisors are amazing and you can either text chat or ring them
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Stuart
Hi Jane,
well done on getting the help you need & deserve.
I’m in a similar position to you, I also started gambling to mask some trauma that I was going through and never imagined how bad it could get. My debts will take at least 5 years to repay, with very little left over each month in the meantime and the thought of financially struggling for that long gets me down, but I really don’t want to destroy my credit rating unless absolutely necessary.Â
Its month one for me too and today was payday… it’s the first time in two years I haven’t gambled most my wages away on day one!Â
Im taking the small wins as it seems like a long road ahead. Good luck xÂ
Hi Jane
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How are you getting on ? Have you been to the chatrooms at all ?
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