What have i done...?

Yes that's prob a good idea janey, I'm not feeling great today tbh been thinking about gambling a lot this morning more than previous days but must b strong day 5 today and I'm heading into town I have no choice so will have to find the strength not to go in the hell hole and meet the devil keep going janey and get them blocks in place

kirbs

Hi kirbs

How was town? I hope all was good and you are feeling ok 🙂 have a great Xmas day with your family and I'm hoping that by boxing day you will be on day 7, a full week 🙂

Good luck and best wishes

Hi janey merry Xmas, I relapsed last night unfortunately was a bit drunk ended up playing internet poker, only topped up 20 though so not that bad anyway back to day 1 I will not b gambling today, how's your recovery going?

kirbs

, Hey kirbs

I hope you had a good Xmas day!

I've not been on today, been busy at parents, dinner etc. Home now and settled down in front of tv with kids. It's later when it's quiet and I'm on my own I really start thinking about gambling. So my issue might be boredom, I've not thought about it apart from how much I lost. I'll have to try to stay busy all freakin day til bedtime lol. I know it's a relapse but £20 isn't too bad kirbs, especially being a bit drunk so hope you aren't being to hard on yourself. I don't know if I will really be able to stop...do I need to stop? I don't know, its confusing sometimes. Have you read before12's post? It's quite worrying...

Speak soon

Janie

Janie, How are you doing?

Hope you are staying strong, ive read your posts from the start and can really associate with your situation. Ive tried to stop so many times, but keep failing.I want to new year to be a fresh start, i cannot go on keep gambling. For me this time i'll be quitting with money in my account, but its all those hours spent gambling i cannot get back.

Look forward to hearing from you.

janie keep going your doing so amazingly well

don t give up

Mate I had the same problem, but I won £70,000 online in a night. All on random virtual c**P.I now have £0. i kept chasing it back, and before I knew it, it was all gone. I told my family. they were alot more understanding than I thought. I would tell your family and your boyfriend. hopefully they can help. But i feel your pain, its horrible, I'm still a mess. Its a horrible habit.

Today is my birthday.... 45 years old and still gambling. I know I'm chasing the money, it's not like I can't see what I'm doing. All I do see is my bank balance going down, I have £12 left, and my money in my savings jar that I don't want to touch. It's probably better that there's nothing in my bank then I can't deposit on slots. I wouldn't go into a bookies and put my savings money on a bet so why do I feel the need to do it online. I still need to tell parents about losing £18,000, kids know and they were ok about it, I'm not though, I feel guilty because I lied about why I lost it, why do we torture ourselves guys?

Hi
A horrible situation i know.
Maybe its time to draw a line in the sand. This is not a financial problem although i know it probably seems like one to you.

You have choices you just dont realise it.

Come clean with all those around you. They deserve it & you need to start being honest.

Hand over financial control. You cannot be trusted to handle your own finances.

Attend GA. Here you will find support & solutions to your pain.

Gambling is not your problem. It is your solution. Understand it doesnt work in curing your pain.

Hello Janey how are you? Well I'm back again back on day 1 again, fell off the wagon big time but got to keep trying I suppose, I have excluded myself from every single site now so hopefully the online gambling is blocked haven't been in bookies which I'm happy about, how's your recovery going?

Just read your story Janie and feel for you. How are you getting on with 2015?

Hi

Thanks for reading, I'm ok, of sorts. Feeling a bit down still about blowing the money I won but learning to live with it. I didn't need to be skint again but i am. It's like I didn't really want to win big! I have no cash in the bank at the mo so can't gamble. I need to cheer up really, I have a lot of positive things in my life but it's like I can't see them. Need to change mindset in a lot of ways really. There's so many people with so many stories on here, some similar some different but we are all in the same boat and it helps to know you're not alone 🙂

Thanks goodbyemrchips

If you figure out how to get over the feeling of guilt, regret etc about a loss please let me know!! I think if you can take the lesson and somehow mentally write off what happened, you'd be able to move on much more easily..

I think it's just time that helps get over the loss, moving on from mistakes which seems hard when it's fresh but I know it gets better cos I've done it before with not quite as much money but still in the couple of thousands. It's the learning not to do it again that's the tough one. Putting a wall around the mental weaknesses that are no good to your health and life. Next Tuesday I won't have gambled for a few days, but on that Tuesday I get paid so that will be my first test. We'll see if I can I leave the money in the bank for the important things in life? There's always hope...

What about get on here and write a post as soon as you get tempted to deposit money into a site?