Where to begin

Hi Suzanne and Sharon

Suzanne I have taken on board something you said to me in a previous post that you have to want to stop and you felt you had no more to give to gambling, I finally know what that is. Thank you for taking the time to reply to me over the last weeks. I feel that I am able to share without judgement which is a huge relief.

Sharon 12 days is fantastic! X I feel the same regarding the lost money, it's in uphill battle but something that needs to be sorted before it gets even more out of hand. I have to not bought myself anything new or even had money of my own to socialise. I moved towns 9 years ago and had no friends here, I believe that's where my gambling issue first arose from boredom. I am now forcing myself out, asking people I work with out to drinks etc and they are more than happy saying why haven't we done this before etc! I'm fine in pubs the fruit machines don't hold any attraction for me!!

My husband continues to be supportive and is so understanding and nice about everything. He turkey is a gentle- man. I feel so blessed to have him and I refuse to jeopardise our future anymore. I will make this up to him and I will start planning fun stuff for us to do rather than looking at the computer screen! X

Hi Jess

I wish you all the best and remember we cannot win because we cannot stop but we do win every day we don't play

I so pleased you have joined the winning team by abstaining and getting back into the real world

Suzanne. X

Hi Reesay

Fruit machines in pubs etc hold no interest for me either. The thing I am finding is that I have sooo much more time! The house and garden have never been so tidy! I feel much more relaxed now too. I very rarely had any funds left on the sites I used to play on but if I did I just couldn't stop thinking about it and I would feel anxious and stressed until I could play it again. I would hurry to do chores etc so I had time to gamble before I had to go to work or before my husband came home and I had to spend it all, then I would vow never to do it again until the next day - just one more. It used to take up so much of my life, if I wasn't playing and was thinking about it. I hope you are continuing to do well and enjoying your new life.xxx

Hi everyone who has posted on this thread. Unfortunately I can identify with the online slots problem only too well. Tomorrow will be my first day clean of gambling and I am inspired by your stories. Yes it will be a struggle but no more than struggling to pay the rent, buy food etc. The last hiccup for me is to find the money to replace the 1000 wasted today. Then perhaps I can look forward to a normal life. Keep up the good work. Elfie x

Hi Elfie

Hope your first day has gone well. I'm still doing ok. Finding other things to occupy my time. Getting paid tomorrow and out of 1400 1100 is going on PD loans, w*f was I thinking! Good luck with your journey and keep posting and reading the forum- it does help. X