I came back here over 2weeks ago recognising I had problems again. What have I done about it other than using these forums? Nothing it seems. Iv sat here gambling again. And only stopped bcos my bank is down and won't let me transfer the last of my funds to play. Iv put myself back into a hole I didn't need to be in and have noone to blame but myself. I hate myself so much x
Hi jw1976,
You know you are caught in the vicious gambling circle. You know you need to break it and fast. Talk to Gamcare and get free counselling and or go to your local GA meeting. Self exclude from High St gambling outlets and block online sites. I feel that you need to put your finances in the hands of a relative as well. If you can't get access to money then you can't bet it's that simple really. You can do sports and take up hobbies to occupy time that would have otherwise been used to gamble. It's as I say BREAK THE VICIOUS CIRCLE. It can be done. I've done it and so have many others. YOU CAN TOO. You will then be the winner-not the bookmaker.
You need to be determined. Turn that hate feeling you have for yourself into a nice love feeling. It will be worth it.
Take Care Now.
As you say, you want change but changed nothing. Hardly surprising the end result is it? Your gambling wont be fixed by wishing it away, you actually have to make it happen.
Start making those changes today.
Honesty
Financial control handed over
Self exclusion
Blocking software
GA meetings
Thank you for your replies. I'm just back from work after sitting up all night and feeling wounded. I thought it would be enough to exclude myself from the sites. How wrong I was. A visit back to jackpotjoy and they say do u want to lift the exclusion?. Yes. A click of a button and I'm back on. What was the point?. I know I'm.ultimately to blame but surely they shud at least wait a few hours b4 reopening it?. I'm scared at my total lack of emotion today. It's like iv lost my fight without even trying. Iv let people down again with no excuse wotsoever. I kno I need help. My problem is my jobs and kids, the only time I have available is late at night when everywhere is closed....except the casinos and online of course. Oh god, what a life x.
My sister was meant to be taking over my finances this week too. It wud seem there's no point as iv wasted it! I had money due in on Tues but the irish bank holiday on Tues meant my money cleared this morn. I can't do this anymore I really can't. I am too weak and stupid x
I was in the same situation as you ever payday Would Spend all my wages In one go And do it every month but I decided that enough was enough told my parents about my addiction and recently attended ga would recommend that.
Thankyou for your kind words. I really thought I had cracked this horrible addiction over a year ago when I really had hit rock bottom. It's scary to think after everything iv been through and what I put my family through, I'm back here again. I do most of my gambling at night because I work long hours and have a young family so I can't get to a ga meeting. I will put blocks in place online tho. My family already know of my problems but are getting sick of my excuses now. Although they try, they won't ever understand. Im certain I got lost in a gambling haze this week because of mothers day. It upsets me so much that I don't have mine anymore. She would be furious with me if she was here, although she would still help me in anyway possible
She really was my best friend and I miss her so much x
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