Day 13, unlucky for some...! I'm looking forward to tomorrow and 2 weeks completely free of gambling. I have a busy day ahead of me, so no time to think.
Well done Kickitnow.
Two weeks is a great milestone to achieve.
It's the thought of winning the money back that is the temptation, you need to keep telling yourself that the money is gone.
One of the only ways I manage to keep the feelings at bay sometimes (although it's hard) is dividing the total loss by the months i've been gambling, doesn't sound such a large amount then and stops me panicking.
For every penny you don't spend they are not making money.
Keep your strength up.
Thanks for the support ToBeOrNot, it's a nightmare when you think of the losses. I also work out if I continued to lose the amount I have been doing each year and then calculate that for the next 2 years, then add together what you could realistically can save/pay off during this period and it's a frightening total. I owe to myself now and my wife. My wife actually asked me how I was today for the first time in one week and she also said that you have been two weeks tomorrow!!! I was well happy with that. I know she's been checking my account regularly as well, and that keeps you well away in my opinion!!
I also find that the urges are not as strong as the first few days.
I had a little dilemma which I decided I come clean with the group including my brother. Every year we start a Fantasy Premier league competition online, there's 6 of us in total and we put £20 quid in the pot, and the winner takes all. I have told all the guys that I have ended my time gambling and that I can be seen as gaining from any type of gambling. Myself and my mate are way out in front and nobody can catch us, I'm top of the league. My mate asked me sometime ago to split the money in two £50 each, which I accepted. I have told him that you need to send the money to my wife.
What's anyone's opinion, have I played that right?
Yipee! Day 14 and I haven't thought about gambling once today. Long may this continue. Two weeks with gambling, looking to push on from this now.
well done on day 14 im on day 83 now im doing well so proof it can be done I do get the urges to gamble but im not gambling I need to keep busy and forget about it.
Thanks Stop, when you start getting some days together you can certainly gain some momentum. Feeling good and actually much better mentally. I use to be on the edge all the time when gambling, if I had lost and started watching tv with the wife, my mind would also be else where and couldn't never relax and watch anything.
I need to keep this going. Onwards and upwards!
Well done for day 83!
Day 15 - I'm getting less and less urges...I never use to gamble continually, but more of a binge gambler that would lose a huge amount in one go and then would calm down a bit until money was available, but on certain binges would hit my credit cards in a big way. I needed to cut it out completely, because I would always gamble on the football. I would actually be more controlled with the football, my let down would be the online casinos. The time before last when I lost loads of money I told myself that I would stop the online casinos and just concentrate on football/sport, but eventually got myself on them again and lost a lot again. Since then and 15 days ago I decided that everything would have to go and now I'm determine more than every to kick this habit for good!!!
Onwards and upwards!
Jonathan
Day17, a Saturday and always a challenge, football coupon normally filled in now and would be ready to pan another £100...Feeling good, although had a really bad night sleep on Thursday night. It seemed like I was dreaming all night about gambling, can't remember too much about what I was dreaming about, but I was winning everything, football, black jack, roulette and scratch cards - I couldn't lose and was winning a fortune. I felt exhausted when I got up and was really grumpy all day Friday and was feeling urges throughout the day. I didn't give in and I really want to be strong.
I feel that was the gambling demons really trying to get into my head to tell me you can win this, you can make a profit out of this life and you can win back all this money you have lost.
No you can't and I don't want to waste another minute of my life or I never want to see a turn of a card for the rest of life.
Just one last b**** before I go, these adverts for online casinos are really annoying, they seem to be on all the time. Never really noticed them before, just tells you that they are not aimed at people that already gamble, but more to hook newbies into a miserable life if they manage to get a horrible addiction that I had from it.
Onwards and upwards, and good luck to everyone this weekend!!! I'm off to watch my team Cardiff City try to get one over the red machine today.
I'm absolutely over the moon that I have gone a full three weeks without gambling. I can see one month at the end of the tunnel now and it feels wonderful. Of course I have had urges and it's been difficult on occasions, but it's certainly getting easier with time and so much better than the first week when things were very raw after losing a significant amount of money.
Now it's a fresh start without gambling and more time on hands without constantly seeing the turning of cards and chasing losses!
Onwards and upwards to month and 50 days!!
Jonathan
Hey, day 23 and feeling good, but have been very busy with work which has been very convenient..I'm off to the USA for the next two weeks and that's a welcome break, business, but good to be in an environment with no gambling opportunities..
Onwards and upwards, here's to future with no gambling!
Hi Jonathan - I have just been reading your posts and find them very inspiring. Day 26 for me so we have been fighting the fight for a similar amount of time. Agree with everything you say about online casinos and other sites - I try to keep a mental picture alive of all those fat cats (gambling bosses) living the high life funded by the misery of millions of people like us. Not any more! Have a good time in the US. We can do this!
Joanna
Thanks Joanna, stay strong....the US is work, but still good to be away for 2 weeks. Always good to stay busy.
well done kickitnow
doing well
keep going
enjoy the recovery and stay busy
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