so much for a new year new me i am still floundering and have not got rid of this stupid habit of mine 🙁 why wont i get it...you cannot win because you cannot stop!!!!!!!
Hi Lphillops.
Have been reading your diary and was just wondering if you no longer have K9 installed on your laptop? If you don't want your husband to know, you can type in an obscure password but write it down first so that you can confirm it. Then you can rip this password up so you will not be able to remove K9. Just a thought that may help.
Take care and don't give up trying.
Feb.
Hello,
Nothing has changed because you have declined to do anything other than express the wish to stop. You haven't taken adequate (any?) steps to break your time - money - location triangle.
A couple of suggestions.
Read back through your diary, then read in full the diaries of ODAAT, Triangle, Brownie, Dunmac, Balvaird, to name but a few. Think about the differences between each of their diaries and yours, between what they have each done to get where they are and what you are doing. One similarity though: it's not easy.
If you're up to it, read some threads from the Family and Friends section. You are indeed harming everyone around you, even if you'd like to think otherwise.
Change the title of your diary to something more positive.
In short, make the necessary changes and you will see the difference! Or don't and stay as you are. Your call.
CW
Day 2 Gamble free...we once again have k9 but my husband has the password, which strangely had made me feel even more in control now 🙂 a mountain of laundry done and a cleaner house 🙂 have even started the rolling savings jar that starts with a 1p, i have decided to remind myself everyday of something good...today i am thankful for my husband, i am very lucky to have him xx
Day 3 🙂 gamble free...just pottered about today and feeling very optimistic about life...checked my emails...to see if i had been awarded any bonuses then laughed when i remembered...i dont need them as i am not going to gamble! I can do this! I will do this 🙂
Day 4 gamble free, realising just how many gambling adverts there are, watching tv i have recorded 😮 honesty has been the theme today...i have told me family that i am not to gamble, felt good being honest and i know that if any of them see me trying to gamble i will be for it lol! day 5 tomorrow, today i am grateful for my awesome family xx
finding today a little difficult, i have money in my account and i am sitting here very bored, i am going to try and distract myself by changing the bedding lol x
Keep it up you've started to put them blocks back in place keep busy finding something to fill you time you can't beat that clean bed feeling you'll sleep well tonight especially being gamble free
thanks oldhamktf, bedding changed floors clean, i just received one of those blooming emails with an 'invite' i will not gamble today! xx
Day 6 feeling good about things...have received a tonne of emails today with stupid sites despite me self excluding, never mind they wont be getting my money...i know why it feels different this time, its because i actually want to stop! xx
day 7 🙂 i made it to a week! and celebrated by buying a new kettle lol! xx
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