A new dawn

Time to get myself in order, my hubby is coming home on Tuesday instead of Thursday ?

That is wonderful news! I am sooo happy to hear this! 

Sleep well my friend. He'll soon be home. 

Last time my Hubby went away (long time ago), I put on my best outfit and set the dinner table all pretty and made a steak dinner and he bought me Roses. It was a beautiful reunification. I hope yours is just as swell as mine was. 

Love you. 

Drama. x

He would love that, thank you for the inspiration ?

The day ends on a brighter note.. 

So comforting to know that news after turbulence of the week.. 

Sleep well.. You deserve too. ❤️ Boo 

Thank you Boo, I think I will tonight x

Diary Diary. Day 36 gamble free.

Today has been a remarkably normal day so I will take that. It was odd waking up to only one moggy to feed. I had a little cry about my boy and spoilt my girl rotten for a bit. She definitely knows he isn't coming back and is missing him. She slept in his favourite spot last night which was lovely. I don't think I have mentioned this before but I have promised my friend that I will take in her cat when she is no longer able to look after her. She is a beautiful British blue. I hope with all my heart that I don't need to be thinking about that for a very long time but it is important for my friend to know that her girl will have a loving home.

I was mildly amused this morning when I had a call from the mental health team saying that they worried about how I would cope yesterday and whether I had got through the day ok, a call yesterday might have helped me a little more ?. I also told them that I was angry that they had phoned my hubby at the end of last week without even letting me know. They know he is abroad with work and the thing that concerns them about me is no better or worse than it has been.

Work was good today, I really like the team I am working with now. I have plenty to exercise the grey cells and stretch me a bit in my new job which is fabulous.

The only time I have thought about gambling today is as I write this and I will take that.

My hubby comes home tomorrow and I can't wait to see him again. Thanks for the inspiration Drama, I will be making his return special.

That's it for today. Tomorrow I will be super excited..

I don’t know why but I feel odd tonight. No other word to describe it really. Will try to get my he was down for some good rest. Very early morning tomorrow. 

Rest well all x

So here it goes....I walked into a bookies tonight for the first time in my life. I didn’t place a bet cos frankly I didn’t know what the hell I was doing. There but the grace of....it could have been oh so easy, offered a coffee and assistance, lovely staff. Thankfully I was nervous enough to leave with no damage done. Still gamble free. Thanks to Netline for your advice. Heeded. No idea why I did it  tbh. 

I am pleased to hear you didn't gamble and that you got some support. It's a crazy addiction. 

Rest well. 

Drama x

It is indeed. Hope you get some well earned rest Drama. Sounds like a seriously long day for you x

Well that was a bit silly of you Murlo to venture into a betting shop but well done that you did not hang around in there and got out without doing any damage. 

Hubby home today which is great news. I hope you have a lovely day together and wish you both every happiness.

You have done really well while your husband has been away and have also been a good friend to others on the diaries, myself myself. Thank you for that.

Stephen x 

It was really silly Stephen and I do not want to do it again, ever. Here to tell the tale unscathed though,,

Up early this morning, train to catch. Really excited about hubby coming home tonight. 

I feel such an idiot about last night’s (mis)adventure. Need to stop thinking “what if” and put it behind me. 

Wishing everyone a good day x

Right.. 

Keep two lists going now

First is room 101.

Second is one less thing to do in life list. 

Pick which one you put the bookies experience in.. ?

Boo x 

? like that advice. Thank you x