Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Yo,

GREAT DAY FOR A PINIC !!!

ENJOY 🙂

Dusty xxx

20 weeks the change in you is truely inspirational i just read your 1st post there and your last post.

Brillant mate your a legend

thanks ronnie I often read my first post seems like today i am a new me!!!

Afternoon Diary, No bet yesterday my first day off in 8 weeks had a good day bit of r and r feel more focused and am today back at the helm on my stove. Had a good chat with my eldest yesterday morning and am proud to report that he gives me his trust again,this time folks I will not be abusing it. then spent the afternoon getting a family supper together and had an evening just the 5 of us had a good chat with all and today know we are as a family re-focused on looking ahead. I hope to take at least a day off per week from now as I know work will also benifit as much as my family so will endevour to keep up a better more balanced routine. Watched my first euro match without falling asleep lol. So thats me checking in thanks again for all your support, Duncs compulsive gambler NO BET today. Stepping forward never back.

morning diary. On way to work for a long day, busy weekend so off to get prepared. I made my first bonus yesterday for gp which will clear another gambling debt and i forecast i can be debt free in 10 months if i keep making progress at the same pace. I feel this will be a huge achievement. It is trully amazing what i know can be achieved by arresting my addiction and as smiler wrote we as compulsive gamblers do go gung ho at most things in life, me i after thinking about this conclude that i enjoy living life in the fast lane, just there is a huge difference today i live not in fear of crashing or even that wanten destruction i had before. Today i will run at all i do but in a measured pre judged fashion with all importantly a massive smile across my face! Duncs stepping forward never back. No bet today.

Glad you had a nice day off duncs, always good to re-charge and re-group.

I couldnt agree with your post more its also a trait of mine, run at things head first then think about the consequences later or not at all. I find now that im calmer, im more focused and although i know i have to reign myself in sometimes i like the give it 100% attitude that i have its just now i chosse to channell it into something positive, Me, my family, work, walking my new doggie, and generally grabbing life by the short and curlies and enjoying it.

Keep that massive smile duncs, your a bright shining star that im following on my recovery journey

Blondie day 53

Hi Duncan,

I am glad u enjoyed ur day off 🙂

U r doing brilliant, keep smiling!

Have a great day and stay strong 🙂

Morning Dunc.

Glad to hear you are doing well.

Like yourselves, my partner and i had a clear the air talk.

It must be hard for them trying to come to terms with our actions and resultant problems. Is it any wonder they get angry and frustrated at times?

We'll stay strong and battle on through though.

Have a nice weekend,

gazza

evening diary. Day 143. Post number 500. I set out on jan 21st to gift my family my suicide as an answer to the emmense problems i had let gambling, my addiction, compulsion, illness cause. I stopped made my confession and threw myself into recovery. Today after enduring a massive change of mindset i am still in recovery,i have arrested my addiction am learning to live without everything in my life being constructed to enable me to feed my addiction. From this i have kept my wife, my children as the most important things in my life(thankyou) and returned to a job i should be doing, i make a choice each morning to keep these things in my life by saying "just for today NO BET " i know for the rest of my life i will be a compulsive gambler and from that i have a stick in my hand. A stick to beat back the urge a stick to beat a path forward. I will enjoy my recovery and i no longer fear the bookie i respect they are there and i yes i duncs have a choice. There are too many to thank on this forum of which your help has helped beyond belief. You know who you are. Lets all get on the gamble free bus a ticket to life without a punt, we have a bar with our gamble free shakes available to all who want em. And a service station open 24/7 to listen and never judge. So one and all be kind, and know here nobody wilj judge you. And "beleive" duncs stepping forward never back.

Morning,

Bagsy the seat on the top at the back by the window.

And why's that Dusty ?

Is it memories of school days long forgotten ?

Do you want to be able to gaze out at the world beyond ?

No none of those

It's the furthest seat to the doors to get off.....

Back to the hell that was my life, before I jumped on board.

Looks to me that you my friend have taken up pole position as designated driver, making sure you are steering us all in the right direction.

Not so sure the uniform suits you, cause I have no doubt you look better in your whites Lol

Dusty xxxx

morning diary. Thanks dusty that made me smile. Numbers it is strange how numbers still play a massive part of many compulsive gamblers lives. Today numbers mean significant things were before they were things i moaned about and blamed for my demise were now i know really it would not have mattered which numbers i chose the outcome would be the same, gambling beat me it had me licked. I know to remind myself of this is a positive thing for me as i really do today see numbers have meaning they help with targets and make goals. In the short term it was one day targets but through recovery i see a week ahead and my target next to get to months ahead. So today i am route to work, dog walked twice in the spirit of the football he now has one a burst one lol, shopped for groceries with the wife nice not to have to count ! ! To be able to buy the odd luxury! And at work i count the happy punters and that makes the smile stay wide. Have a good no great weekend one and all duncs stepping forward never back. No bet today.

Good thinking batman !

Rach and Dots why didn't I think of that .

Dusty xxxx

Morning Duncs,

Good to see Hovis is enjoying and getting in the spirit with the footie lol

Numbers, gosh i''m getting a bit obsessed about counting money now, never been like that before , never even knew what i had/had'nt got etc but since stopping know to virtually the penny but hey ho if it keeps me bet free it's ok!

To be able to say looking ahead weeks then maybe months is huge Duncs and shows that your still on the right road and forever moving forward never back!

Keep Strong and have a great day!

Lucy

morning diary. Just on route to work, stopped to grab a paper on way to grab a bus in as eldest is on the potwash and may be in the chair for a pint on the way home lol. The fella in front of me handed over thirty quid he had a paper,20 smokes and the rest scratch cards. Me i handed over 3 quid for the observer and some gum, outside he was scratching away on the bin top and throwing the cards in the bin, i said no luck fella he said "not a chance they are a con" and now a fiver a go! I smiled inside as i walked away, that was me in a previous self! And worst of all it would not have registered as a punt or a waste of my hard earnt. Right off to roast some mighty fine english rib, emergency 20 in wallet! Striding forward never back duncs compulsive gambler no bet today.(the observer today has a food magazine which once a month is fantastic' thankyou mr slater)

Hi Duncan,

Just popping in 2 say I hope u r enjoying ur day, and not working 2 hard lol

U r doing brilliant, and ur positivity shines thru 🙂

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

Morning Diary.

just topped up on my "gamcare fix" and today I will say this over the weekend I read a post on young charlottes diary that said "gamcare is not enough for recovery" In a measured way I responded and I will today add this Recovery from this addiction is ultimatley our decision and when the time is right we will arrest this compulsion and if you ever need to see the wonderfull wonderfull things achieved by the folks on this sight you will do well to read Lucy's latest post, dusty's latest post and not to forget Andies latest post, I thank you all I am trully humbled keep posting, Inspiring.

Duncs stepping forward never back.No Bet today.