Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

HI Duncs,

Hope the back is a bit better today !. I have been reading the 12 steps and seem to be a bit stuck, time to get a sponsor i think.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend, take it easy on the back !

Blondie

Good Afternoon sir,

After reading through your epic diary am trying to work out if you would be a good patient.................Sorry Duncs......reckon you would be a nightmare.....Hope I gave you a smile!

Where theres pain and all that!

One of your older posts got me thinking a bit........The one about Cheers....I had it on series record and am watching it in stages....soooo funny! Also admit to being totally addicted to Frasier............Nothing to touch it!

Did you get into "Hot in Cleveland".......takes a while but am getting there!

Goodness what a load of old twaddle from me today!

Hope rest of the family ok?

Sue x

Hi Duncan,

Just popping in 2 say, I hope u feel better soon and the pain eases 🙂

Take care 🙂

Evening diary. Thanks for all your kind words, on bus home now after taking myself to my own limits physically today with over a hundred cvrs and on top of that the boss wanted a meeting about the direction of the place, he seems to eat out And each time wants to add what he saw to our menu, today as I told him is a day for survival!!! Tomorrow I will fix my back then tuesday I will humour the boss.home to lay on the floor and enjoy if my pills let me the olympics.

Thanks again for helping me upon my way it means alot

Duncs stepping forward never back

Rest up and hope you can get some sleep Duncs..

Your back now the priority ...will be thinking of you at the Docs tomorrow...

always forward...but baby steps whilst your in pain ..

hugs and waves to the fam../////

R and D xxxx

Morning Diary.

Well no docs today as they dont have an appointment till tomorrow, so after a night upon the floor,exercises done to free it all up this morning I have set about having a constructive day. My back problems started 20 years ago when i shattered two discs in a kitchen accident, of which in the true form of my "quick buck" old life i took two weeks wages as compensation!!! today I know what to do to make my back pain free, do less manual work, exercise and cut down on the good life!! everything in moderation!!!! So I have another day off used it to walk the hound,make a birthday cake for my daughters friend, see what is happening in the world of catering and what options i have(less manual hands on more managerial) and finally a top up on my sense of well being Gamcare!!!

This afternoon I will enjoy another stroll with Sarah and the hound and more exercises on the back, more tramadol and a night of more amazing olyimpics!! in the middle i think a salad of sorts will be in order.

Tomorrow out to docs then lunch out with the boss to hear his latest plans!!:) of which today i will start to formulate my own, as recovery has taught me one huge thing, always be prepared and always look after yourself.

And all of this made possible today because for tomorrow I make the choice no bet today

Duncs stepping forward never back.

hey Duncs....

Absolutely....need to look after yourself...cos like you said ..if we self care and take care of our own stuff it free's up others who we love to be themselves too.

Thinking of you baking birthday cakes and putting that thought right out of my head as had no lunch yet and eyeing up the sugar...

My friend has always struggled with his back and I don't envy you but the docs hopefully will sort you out...disk problems need a lot of TLC.

Onwards and upwards with self care my friend ....its the total opposite to being selfish ..in fact its the most loving thing we can probably do for our other halves really...to take care of ourselves so they can live.

Its a slow process all this changing bad habits but once we do the big climb we all gather momentum pretty fast.

Just thinking of that meal...lol...what a hoot...LOL

xx

ALWAYS forward....never back.

hugs (but not too hard as your in pain)

R and D xx

HI Duncs

thanks for the post as always your right, i need to appreciate what i have done and be a little more patient i know i wont change overnight and will keep kicking myself into action.

Hope the doc can help with the back i know its very painfull as my friend suffer with it also. You sound like your taking your own advice and looking after yourself.

Take care

Blondie 🙂

Yo,

Just a little bit of advice from someone who cares !

SLOW DOWN !!!

What have you had 3 days off since you started this job

Ummmmmmm it's gonna take its toll some where .

So stop striding like you are in the olimpics , just a quick pace , like that race I have seen where they walk quickly but are disqualified if they run .

God I bet I sound like your mum , sosssssssssssss

Shiny xxxxxxxx

Hi Duncs,

Is it a gamblers thing to be impatient....know I am the same.

You really do need to look after your back!

I need to be getting plenty of cooking ideas from ya. Have invited bestie round next week and gonna do the chuck the way you suggested.......will keep you informed!

Take care

Wise Tobermorry..........got me new glasses!

Love to all the family

Sue xx

Evening diary. Well been out to a wine bar with the boss for lunch so he could share his vision, he wants to move towards a steak and seafood grill, so took me to a wine bar to see there fishcake!!!!! Talk about being confused, still home to do the figures and that should put him off!!! That is I know what happens when you give a property man a restaurant!!!

My back pain has eazed, self fixed and I will keep my foot off the pedal for a few days until I am sure it won't pre lapse again I have been here many times before and this time I will recover properly.

today I got further focus for the fact I will do things in the correct We fashion as it really is I now know worth putting in the extra effort to all aspects of my life.

Got to walk the hound a good few miles with my sarah this morning so after that to be truthful there is not much life can throw my way that will even dent the surface.

All this because today 30 weeks to the day since I found the courage to face head on the one thing that threatened to destroy it all.

Today I make that choice because I can see there is simply so much beyond the punt!!!

Just for today NO BET.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hiya Duncs....

glad to hear you're in less pain and foot off the gas is deffo what you need there...

Your priorites are right with self care and family at the top..no need to watch the Olympics...you're clearing those hurdles with tread to spare every day.

Congratulations on your 30 weeks ...thats 210 in dog weeks Hovis tells me. : )

Courage you have bags of and always remember..."Courage is not the absence of fear...it is doing it despite feeling that fear"....I know how hard you are working Duncs and look how far you are now away from that old life that no longer serves you or has any place in your future.

It cant afford to rent any space in your head...as your head is full of so much more beyond all that as you rightly say.

Always forward...never back...

hugs and waves to you and Sarah ///////...they are waves.

Rach and Doo xxxx

no...these are waves...//////////...the other was a mexican wave...lol xx

Evening diary.

Well so much for taking my foot off the peddle , went into work for dinner service to find everyone else in my absence had taken there's off it too. So just did a day and a halfs work in 6 hrs. on the positive side my back held up well and I did what I do best strode through it and tomorrow I will put in a double double shift to get back to were things should be.come sunday I will see who really wants there position.

The reason I got through tonight is down to two things, first I got to spend another morning with my sarah, we enjoyed a walk in the rain and a bit of shopping before some lunch, these normal things have such more value today and I cherish each moment.second up I used to be so so angry at life always looking for an excuse to throw my toys out and run off to the bookies to find the answer.well folks no more I am here to becounted and f**k em I will buckle and bend but I will not break!!!!!!! Today I have an enormous sense that I will do what I set out to and in the knowledge that I am lucky, cos I found a rock 20 years ago only now I can see I can lean upon it when I need to, for that I am sure.sarah we won't ever be beaten again. Xxx

Duncs compulsive gambler today NO BET.

Stepping forward never back.