Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Evening diary.

Well another day and without doubt the earning of an honest dollar or two, a feeling of more forefillment, a step further away from the past, a chapter that feels closed.

My name is duncs,compulsive gambler no bet today, without doubt the odds simply are not A temptation.

Today the boss asked if I wanted to join the works syndicate for the *****, my answer simple.

"not for me fella, I don't by choice gamble"

He simply shook my hand and said "respect"

Something I have a lot of today and I shall keep it, my treat today, to put on the 2013 calendar a holiday booking for august for you got it, a week at the steam fair, something else recovery delivers forward planning.

Happy days, not in till 4 pm tommorrow, a free morning to walk the hound, and catch up on things around the house.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Happy Day's fella. I knew I guy from Liverpool who I went to university with, he alway's said "Happy Day's" I loved that.

It is Happy Day's Duncs, pure happy day's. Loving every minute of it.

Too Happy' Day's and more to come! Enjoy your time off my man, my massive respect to you as alway's.

JP.

ps... YTou watching the Masterchef series no doubt. I love that programme, used to Like John Torode in there, he seemed to add something. Anyway, a good mixture of personalities this year. I was skeptical about how the series was progressing, thinking Aussie? Anyway, liking it back at it's originalty. Great chefs, great inspiration for some of them! lol They must be under serious pressure btw.

I must admit, on a few of the rounds, they had my fav ingredients, I could have kicked a**, but I'm not all round. The knowlede these gu's and girls have is amazing, and I am sure your's is too.

Great programme from the BBC. In fact the only thing I watch, oh and the Apprentice and History/Nature which they do do good progs..

JP

well sounds like a mighty fine day for you with no regrets. them always be the best. lol keep em coming.

Morning diary,

Well this morning I found myself whilst wandering with my dog this morning how far I have come on this journey, in short as a person I do feel a million miles from the person I had let my addiction become.

I used to towards the end of gambling beating me,do anything to feed the compulsion to gamble,beg,borrow and steal, in my eyes through telling lies upon lies to get cash was stealing and worst of all I did not care who it was from,my mum,my wife,even the kids money. I used to pawn goods often only to ten minutes later be once again potless, all of that heartache,disruption for the "chance" to win!!and the constant stream of lies to cover the lies incredible!!

Today I face things head on,nothing much wipes the smile from my face.

We have reduced the debts caused by my gambling significantly,we rescued our dog and most of all we have plans, something whilst at it were impossible!!

"abstain and maintain" a way of getting the best out of all I do,I am fortunate beyond any "chance" win I ever had,today I can with total honesty see that.

So today I will enjoy my day a little more than yesterday but folks not nearly as much as I know I will tomorrow,whatever it throws my way.

why??

Because today I will make a choice to better tomorrow NO BET today.

No Ga tonight but off to enjoy a cuppa shortly with a member of my fellowship,no doubt to discuss last nights wonder goal!! lol,then off to work this afternoon.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Compulsive gambler No bet 23/01/2012

well hey cant get much more positive than that and way to go. keep building that future instead of giving away tomorrow. stay strong, your worth it

Hi Duncan,

Thank u 4 ur post on my diary and ur continued support. It means alot 🙂

I wanted 2 say that I read ur sons poem from the other nite and as u already probably know I really enjoy poetry and I thought it was gr8. He has a real talent, I am sure u r sooooo proud of him 🙂

U r doing brilliant 🙂

Have a gr8 nite 🙂

evening diary

Today marks 300 days gamble free, free from an addiction that took this fella to the very brink of total destruction, it very nearly took it all, my home, family, self respect the lot.

Today I am feeling pleased with my efforts to claw back my self respect.fair and square gambling beat me up, did its worst, but today I evaluate what I have, and through recovery its amazing.nothing fazes me, I take the downs on the chin, but the up's far outweigh the downs, because today I do believe in myself, I have self esteem, a wife who reaps from my efforts, she truly is my soulmate, I can without my addiction blinding me see that for all its worth and yes its more valued than any win.

So today I will graft hard, enjoy life and all it delivers.

Thanks to my family I love you all unconditionally , gamcare and the folk who mean so much, ian b for believing in me, ga for your relentless help.

This opportunity I won't be taking a "chance" on.the odds simply not enough at any price.

To recovery and all it can deliver.

Duncs compulsive gambler No Bet today

Stepping forward never back

Hi Duncanmac

Brilliant achievement and u should be so proud of ur efforts , because where u came from is nothing short of a miracle , one last bet away from losing the lot and to somehow to get where u r now is an example to anyone , u deserve all the praise thats comin ur way

Ur a true inspiration for everyone

Castle2

Hi Duncs,

A big well done to you. Your future is in your hands. Your belief, spirit and amazingly positive attitude is very admirable. Gamcare is lucky to have your continued presence and I am proud to consider you a friend. You are appreciated by many and your important and relevant posts have come to be eagerly anticipated by all. WE have travelled so far, long may our journey continue.

Ian.

wow Duncan...your last few posts are amazing! You really have turned your life around and you should be very proud...we are all proud of you.

I love reading your supportive post to others too...you make a real difference to people.

Keep strong and determined as I know you will

Forwards not back

Jewels

Evening diary.

Day 300, thanks for all the kind words, astounding, how a mindset can change, evolve, a new forefilling chapter has become all consuming, but one which delivers a positive outcome with the dawn of each day, the old saying"the best things in life are free" rings true, the mindset to abstain and maintain is free and a subscription of which I will take a life membership to.today I finished a long 7 day week, my body knows it, tomorrow I will enjoy a day of r and r, not to be destructed by a visit to a gambling emporium.

I learnt over the weekend one of my junior chefs has a compulsion to gamble, he went to ga for a spell but is back at it again, I can see all the traits, moody, terrible appearence and things are all everyone elses fault, I won't intervene, I no only too well about good advice and deaf ears , but will endevour to show him what hard work can deliver in work and personal life, the results each day can and will be amazing.

Look forward to catching up with you all tomorrow.

Duncs compulsive gambler No Bet today.

Stepping forward never back

congratulations on 300 days. awesome and inspiring diary. a very big well done and pat on the back.great stuff.

All the best

Steven

Morning Diary,

Well had a good top up on my gamcare medicine,sad to see Ade went back at it,glad to see him back,lets fill his jar with those golf balls again!!

Well got in from work yesterday to a super roast lamb supper cooked by my beautiful wife,enjoyed a cider and then the carnage started!! LOL My daughters toys got thrown, Sarah's toys thrown WHY The X!!!!

Oh and youngest rolled around laughing!!

Then when I had plecated them, Joe came in cheering "Come on Rylan" so it all started again!!!

Today I have a day off,one to enjoy,going to walk the dog a few miles,pick up his jumper his nan is making lol!!,curry the rest of last nights lamb and catch up with a snooze on the couch before the herd come home lol.

The one thing I wont be doing today is ruining my day by having a punt!!!

The other news from the mac house is our whippet rescue have found another dog for us,he is in kent,but may be with us later in the week,his name is Blue, although he is black !!!

I can't wait for xmas,(for the first time in a very long time!!) We could have two riendeer LOL!!!!!!

Enjoy your day Gamcarers I know I will mine!!

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Compulsive gambler No bet 301 days.

Hey duncs

So I here the latter of tiny laws might be on the cards lol. Go on I dare you to dress them up as reindeers lol.

Woody is so big now and such a fantastic dog he looks right through me with those big eyes of his and asks for very little in return.

Thank you for the post duncs loved the brick with my dads name on it, brought tears to my eyes but with a smile also.

You truly are a man of wise words and inspiration if I am ever in your neck of the woods I would love to sit in a meeting with you .

Take care duncs

Blondie