Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Dunc,

Hope this finds you well my friend.

Best wishes,

gazza

Hey Duncs...

lot of folks woud love to share your year milestone with you on here and i hope you pop back for old times sake and post your thoughts even for just one day on an incredibe life changing year.

I know for a cyberfact you're g free so im not worried in the slighest about that...am just missing you not being on here and selfishly im gutted.

if you have had enough I respect that but think its a shame that people are hounded off this site or leave due to misunderstandings ....

Can't force you to change how you feel (but as a codep I probably will have a bluddy good go..)!!...

Thinking of you

R and D xx

Hey Duncs...

Not my place to be on the gamble free thread but just popping in to say i have the widest smile tonight at seeing your name back up there...

((((D))))

R and D x

Hi Duncan

Its great to see you back even if its just to check in. You are an inspiration to so many on here and person that so many look up to.

You should be very proud of your achievements here for yourself as well as for the way the way that you have helped so many others.

Hope to see you posting again on your own diary again soon my friend.

Best Wishes

Andrew

Hello Duncan...

Thankyou..Top man Duncs, walking tall and true.

Take care.

Paul

Morning diary.

Thankyou all for the immense support you have all given unconditionally the last couple of days.

My emotions turned to anger, a fuel which unharnessed can i know lead to a terrible path.

So i took stock, walked away from the furnace.

I emailed Gamcare, the moderator emailed back confirming that my post had been deleted as part of a block of posts and not because of its content.

I hope from this maybe they can learn too.

The compulsive gambler is a fragile beast.

Emotional and fighting an addiction that knows no bounds to how it Will get you back at it.

I agree moderation has to happen upon a forum, to aid its ultimate goal,my wish is a more in depth public answer,not a generic one may service us to our common goal without possible casualties.

I asked myself this question

do you need Gamcare?? Probably not.

Do you want Gamcare??? Without doubt yes.

Why??because it is a place by and large full of like minded folk who share a common goal Recovery.

By and large a place were support is unconditional and each day there is a great deal to learn.

Would i change my actions of the posts i made??

No. I would not.

I Will continue to Learn from my shortcomings

anger is an emotion which my addiction sees as a weakness in my armour, and it would love to see me running into the open arms of a bookies,to drown my sorrows in the fobt.

I stepped away to harness my anger.today i once again see the wood from the trees.

My resolve untainted .

I Will do whatever it takes to find a way to continue my abstinence i know without doubt through it my life constantly improving.

And the lives of those i care most for too.

So amongst my peers i hope to march on more educated, united in finding our lights guide.

Abstain and maintain.

Thankyou again for you amazing support i apologize to anyone whom i troubled through my actions to continue my recovery,ultimately the most important thing at stake.

Something at no odds i Will comprise.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Mornin Duncanmac

Been following ur diary but left my post till now the main reason was yes u had to work it out for urself take that step back to see the clearer picture , like gambling was for u life is all bout making the right choices but only u can make them

So pleased u av worked it out and are continuing with ur diary , ultimately that will benefit u but people reading ur diary will be inspired and the support u give so many others can only help them in their recoveries

What's done is done and once again lessons will be learned u can step forward with ur head held high with ur integrity in check once again u displayed great leadership skills and stuck to ur beliefs

I'm sure I can speak on behalf of everyone that its great to av u back this forum is a much better place for having u on it the benefits outlined for everyone speaks for itself

Castle2

alls to say is glad your back xxx

Hi Duncan,

Just wanted 2 say I'm glad ur back!

Stay strong xx

Good to see you back. Your welcome post on my new members diary recently meant a great deal to me and was much appreciated.

How you dealt with all this has shown me how strong you can become as, delicate flower that I am, I would have immediately hidden my feelings in a massive spending spree.

Health, happiness and strength for 2013

xxx

Hey Duncs,

Soo glad that you are back! -joanxx

Hey,

Had a s**t day at work.........More than made up for it now you are back.

No words needed from me Duncs

Just pull up that stool!

Sue xxxxx

Hi Dunc,

Like someone else said, 260 pages is a heck of a lot to go through so I have to admit I haven't read all your diary. However it does seem like you are a real inspiration to people here so whatever that hectic stuff was going on with regards to posts etc I hope it's all sorted now and you're back with us.

Also just read on Flagg's thread which you checked in on that you're shortly coming up a year without gambling. What an achievement. You must have worked so so hard.

Sounds like you're doing well. Well done.

Bilko

Evening diary.

Well had a rare Sunday off. Was due to have yesterday off but due to sickness of staff i swapped around days.

So enjoyed a lay in!!! Got up at half eight.

Polished off the spring menu to commence shortly.

Then went shopping with my two boys, enjoyed a cornish pasty breakfast and some great company.

Funny they are like chalk and cheese but deep down i see they have a strong bond. We laughed at each other alot and posted some more good memories to the bank.

We embarked on a trip after the sales to an Indian grocery store were i layed the foundations for my January project, i am going to investigate curry,how to blend and cook,something i love to eat but don't know enough about cooking. So the cupboards are groaning tonight with spices and pastes and every night may become curry night lol.

To boot we decided that in 15 days time we Will dine out at an Indian restaurant to celebrate my gamble free year.

To abstain and maintain,something i would have never thought possible.

Today i believe. Truthfully i believe.

Abstain and maintain.

Enjoy it every minutes breathe.

Duncs compulsive gambler No Bet today

stepping forward never back

Mmmmmmm currrry 🙂 I've pretty much just been eating constantly all day and could just about manage a curry and a cornish now but that would be greedy. I'll cycle it of tomorrow I keep telling myself.

Joking aside what a great plan to immerse yourself in the wonderful world of curries and how to blend the spices etc. Did I read you was a chef or am I imagining it ?

Anyway sounds like you had a great day with your boys and some more good memories to keep you on the good foot.

I'll be counting those fifteen days down for you and hope that curry you go out for is an amazing night for you all !