Another relapse

Hello mate

Don't beat yourself up about it, we cannot change things that have already happened but just notice that throughout these forums you will find people who have relapsed during their diary and I am yet to read one where someone relapsed and made profit and withdrew that profit. Whether that mean they were unfortunate and lost it all at once or whether it means they were money up but kept going until they lost it all. Anyway what I'm trying to say is that we are addicted to the risk and thrill of losing money and as stupid as it sounds, that's exactly what it is. The only way is to close all your accounts and try to remember exactly how you felt during your last big gambling spend and wonder whether you want to feel that way again and again or whether you want to feel positive and move forward in your life without gambling.

If you ever feel like you are going to relapse, log on to here and ask for help. There is so many people that will happily offer you their advice. Wish you all the best.

Hiya it's sad to read about your slip once more, it has taken me nearly 13 years to get where I am today i managed a year once but then fell back into the trap. It can be done you need to want to stop not just reget your loss.

I've got to ask why read about something that hurts you so much stay away from the poker sites and come here instead. This is a safe place 24/7 it will remind you of all the bad thoughts you have had after gambling before you lose any more. It may be time to go back to basics close your accounts, put a blocker on your computer and if you have someone close to you who can hold and control your cards then let them. Top tip order new ones first then the details will have changed and any site you forgot to close you can't just deposits any more.

We are all here to beat this and together we can, you can rebuild your life just need to keep working at it. All the best for tomorrow hope to read a happy post tomorrow night

Hi 25

Never give up on giving up and you are not well done

You need to put every barrier in place to stop temptation

Keep trying and keep going

We cannot win because we cannot stop so win today by not playing

Suzanne x

Hi 13th

Sorry for your relapse and good luck, one day at a time my friend. Thanks for post, the money has gone don't dwell on the past, just look to today

Best wishes

Cheryl xx

Hey buddy. Just read your posts. Sorry that things are tough at the moment. I had a stupid relapse yesterday - I spent money which I shouldn't have and at one point I was winning and winning...only to then find myself leaving the arcade 3 hours later with 2 pennies left in my pocket. As a compulsive gambler, I am realising that I play to lose, never to win, otherwise I would be minted. I hate what gambling does to me (and to others).

I can see that you realise there is hope buddy - and this is what you need to cling onto. Have you chatted with Gamcare advisers? Or perhaps considered counselling? I have got some more counselling lined up starting next week (had some last year and was clean for 3 months but then relapsed) and I am determined to beat this illness for good this time. We are all here for you buddy. Don't give up!

Don't beat yourself up about hindsight. Hindsight is a great thing - it could have prevented the second world war...but did it?

I guess what we need to try to do is use what we have learnt in the past to inform our future...easier said than done in our case. Last week I gambled 900 on an online casino and won 3100...that could have paid off so many bills. The stupid website would only let me withdraw 1000...so I withdraw that then played and lost the rest. Then two days later I logged on to see if they had processed my 1000 and they hadn't...decided to reverse 100 (which meant I had broken even)...spent that...and then within 1 hour I had lost the rest. Hindsight should have taught me that that was going to happen...but I wasn't thinking about it at the time, and I clearly hadn't learnt from my past mistakes.

I haven't gambled since yesterday though, and I don't intend to gamble tomorrow.

Stay strong buddy.

Hi 13th

Wow I could really relate with what you wrote about your feelings, you are so true as I too truly feel I will miss all the buzz and excitement, but like you I don't know when to stop.

But what I won't miss is the next morning feeling when you've blown all your money, it is clear neither will you.

So one day at a time, try to be kind to yourself

Best wishes

Cheryl xx

Hiya, great to see your back on track blocks in place and spending more time on here looking at the number of your post today, I hope you feel good about your self tonight, you should be, you are in control now day 1 nearly over keep the post coming hope to read tomorrow as day 2

Well done and all the best

Morning 13th,

Good to see you are looking forward and don't dwell on the past.

I wonder if a majority of us gamble to try to get out of debt or the gambling causes it, one to think about.

Well day 2 and you can do this, keep posting and stay strong and please start to be kind to yourself

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Great to read things are better this morning you sound like your in a much better place already, thinking something we forget to do when gambling, all rashonal thought goes out the window, I guess it's the same as been on drugs you get your fix your on a high then the morning comes you reflex on your lossers and feel down, lower than the day before, keep your mind clear fill your time in a possative way and life will get better. Hope it's day 3 tomorrow for you. You can do it

13/8

Thanks for your kind words upon my thread,I heard those words in my GA room and they too had a profound effect upon my life too.

The financial carnage is a side effect of this addiction, it is what keeps a hold on our gambling activity for prolonged periods,it grows as the compulsion progresses.

Two things stand out for me,the first don't let addiction use the outstanding debt to tempt you back,to use it to it's end to convince you gambling is a solution,because secondly without gambling you will not add to the debt,through arresting the punt you arrest the financial loss

The mantra we all live by

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP

is reversed

I DID WIN BECAUSE I DID STOP

it may not feel like it but you are doing something amazing,it is a life choice,with that choice life will improve

Keep making the right choice

Abstain and Maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

13/8 hope all is still going well, be great to hear that your on day 5 now all the best.

Well done 13/8!!

You wouldnt have withdrawn, none of us would have andthe fact that you ignored the urge is amazing.

Stay strong x

Well done 13/8 great to see you are finding stopping more fun than gambling it self, keep them days counting and enjoy your freedom.