Day 41.
Had a horrible day. Started with my brother ringing about the hospital stay for my dad last week.
My family are very disjointed (that's putting it mildly) and my brother doesn't talk to my sister or my cousin etc etc.
Last week was like something out of a soap opera .I talk to them all but if I rang my sisters ex-husband for an update, I had to remember not to mention it to my sister when she rang. There were so many people not talking to each other that it was so stressful.
Anyway my brother rang this morning saying I shouldn't have told our cousin about the hospital stay. Honestly I was sick of it!!!
I don't suffer from headaches but I had a splitting headache.
I would have loved to settle down and play the slots to get away from it... instead I spent the day effing and blinding!!
I told my brother to take a running jump and I was not following his petty rules from now on.
In therapy it turns out I don't "deal with issues" and spend hours on slots to avoid confrontation.
Well I dealt with the issue this time!
While I was cursing away I also managed to tear into the housework... my oven shelves are gleaming.
From now on I will work through the issues one by one.... I will have a clear head, clean house and what harm is a bit of therapeutic cursing to help me along!!
doing what your now doing is defently better than gambling well done , all the best with your family
Suzy
Great post!!
Anything that gifts your resolve take it,use it to your advantage.
Honesty has brought my life alot of wonderful things through my recovery.
No longer saying what I think other folk want to hear to my own detriment one of them for sure.
Recovery is the one selfish act we can gift ourselves that will have a profoundly good effect upon others.
The polar opposite to our gambling lives.
Keep up the great work
Duncs stepping forward never back
Hi Suzy
Well done on 41 days and it's good to read you are becoming stronger and stronger in abstaining when under pressure
Keep strong and keep going and keep winning
Suzanne x
Hi Suzy
Would love to hear how you are doing.
Elfie x
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