I have been on this forum on and off for years. My situation has never improved.
Online and bookies roulette has absolutely destroyed me over the last 12 years. I have crippling debts, crippling memories and a feeling of complete hopelessness.
I look for no sympathy... Purely a platform to offload and share my final journey at ridding myself of this disgusting addiction. This is one final push and I will pour my heart and soul into succeeding.
I have signed up for gamstop for 5 years so online blocks are taken care of. Bookies roulette is still a major problem and I am willing on April when the new legislation is introduced to reduce stakes to £2.
My debts are a lot. The interest is enormous. I will phone every creditor tomorrow in an effort to negotiate a payment plan and hopefully have interest frozen with at least a few of them.
I don't deserve support. I took no ones advice before as I was stubborn enough to believe I could pull myself out of this torment alone. The truth is. I can't. I need every bit of help I can, so please feel free to provide that to a very desperate and lonely person.
This is day 0. Tomorrow is day 1.
And if anyone that has ever felt anything for me ever reads this. I am extremely sorry for everything I have put you through. I hope one day I can share this blog with you and explain the reasons for my behaviour.
Never stop trying mask, good luck yo you
You can do this.
Keep trying you must be tired of this now like me. Take it daily and keep reaching out.
Dear Mask
If you havent already, please contact Step Change, they will help you deal with your creditors, though a necessary aspect of recovery, you do not have to deal with your creditors on your own. Their number is 0800 138 1111 You have had some excellent feedback, don't give up. If you need to talk, call us on 0808 8020 133
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Hey Mask, sorry to see you back under such painful circumstances for yourself...Please don't think you are alone in this! Addiction would have us believe that we are worthless, encourage us to think that our problems are poison (drink, drugs, s*x, food, money etc) related when in fact, this is a mental health condition and loneliness is a compounding factor.
Good on you for signing up to GamStop...That is a huge step (as is coming back here) but as you are well aquainted, the bookies aren't going anywhere for the time being and I know exactly what damage a £2 stake can do as I spent most of my ridiculous gambling career punting with even lower.
You don't owe anyone here anything but you owe it to yourself to mean what you say about giving it your all this time...I tried for many many years thinking I could do it alone, should be able to, but I was a fool. GA is working for me (when I let it) and everyone on here is here for the same reason. I hope you wake in the morning with the strength to follow through on your financial plans and get day 1 safely under your belt.
The rest of the journey will follow - ODAAT
Hi The mask,
Sounds like gambling has finally broken you but the harsh reality is we got to get this low in order to recover. I know its hard but if you speak from the heart and you trully had enough every day will get better.
Stay Strong
AL
Hi The Mask,
Have you tried gamblers anonymous meetings ?
Mask I’ve also been on this site for years and never succeeded but registered did gamstop 31 December last year in over a month in and I feel like a massive weight off my shoulders I don’t go in bookies thankfully so it’s done the trick for me but it’s a massive start for you ! I wish you well I know so well the misery gambling causes and I will keep an eye out on your progress willing you on hun xxx
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