I agree with Dan Martin.
But I know you will take it in your stride anyway.
As this will probably be my last post before I get moderated
So I thought I would make it a good one.
Your diary on here has and always will be one of inspiration. Someone who has lost the ultimate and managed to turn there life back around. It shows if you put as much into recovery as you did into addiction the possibilities are endless.
Well done Martin
Deano x
Hello Martin,
I read a very dignified post from you earlier which never surprised me as I've been reading similar from you since you first set foot on this forum.
Keep on that high road you've been travelling on admirably...
KTF
Not had a bet today or since my last post.
Been great to have my son back home he a had a good time but I think he's happy to back to his home comforts. Been with him for the last couple of days ordered a present for his mums birthday, I went out today and bought her a card with it being her 40th birthday thought I should lol. How hard is it to be a card for your ex. Normally I would just pick up any card not much thought but this time I had to read the words and make Sure I dodge tone with love, hugs and kisses etc I did contemplate some life begins at 40 ones but thought that might open me up to some abuse with her already starting a new life.
Wasn't able to spend much time with my son tonight due going to GA but he understands I need GA to be able to give him my all for the other 166 hours in the week. Good meeting again took a lot from it tonight which put me in a nice chilled place tonight, which I need to be after popping into chat on my return. To say I was kicked out of chat and not allowed back in till today for yes sarcastically telling gambler toad to do one. Tonight just proved I was right with some the goading and insensitive comments made.
No contemplating my future on here I know I need to continue doing all that I am doing we always say this a progressive illness I'm starting to realise recovery is progressive too.
KTF
Hi , I just wanted to say thank you for your continuous support its much appreciated:)
Thank you
I've not had a bet today or since my last post
Sorry it's a long one but better to ramble than gamble I'm sure tomorrow will be a better day.
Hi Guys saw the below article about a runner who fell in the olympic 5000m and another run stopped to help her finish, not once but twice showed real olympic spirt.
It reminded me of this place people fall and members on here rally round and go back and pick them up and help them to continue their journey. Brightened my day up seeing this, so thanks to all those who have been there for me and others.
KTF
Hi Martin, tough day yesterday alright!
We all get days like that where nothing seems to go right, almost feels a test of resilience and you passed. I know what you mean with your mum, I've had my mum question me in round about ways have I gambled when I was in a bad mood. As you say she was only looking out for you.
The lad at GA, yes that would annoy me too but as the SP says 'accept the things we cannot change'.
All the best
Oldhamktf wrote:
Not had a bet today or since my last post.
Been great to have my son back home he a had a good time but I think he's happy to back to his home comforts. Been with him for the last couple of days ordered a present for his mums birthday, I went out today and bought her a card with it being her 40th birthday thought I should lol. How hard is it to be a card for your ex. Normally I would just pick up any card not much thought but this time I had to read the words and make Sure I dodge tone with love, hugs and kisses etc I did contemplate some life begins at 40 ones but thought that might open me up to some abuse with her already starting a new life.
Wasn't able to spend much time with my son tonight due going to GA but he understands I need GA to be able to give him my all for the other 166 hours in the week. Good meeting again took a lot from it tonight which put me in a nice chilled place tonight, which I need to be after popping into chat on my return. To say I was kicked out of chat and not allowed back in till today for yes sarcastically telling gambler toad to do one. Tonight just proved I was right with some the goading and insensitive comments made.
No contemplating my future on here I know I need to continue doing all that I am doing we always say this a progressive illness I'm starting to realise recovery is progressive too.
KTF
A tough night, well done for sharing, tri
Hey Kt how's things? Dizzy
Thanks again for the nudge this morning. Without it I don't think I would of gotten everything out I wanted to say today.
I must owe you at least 20 beers by now lol
Xx
Hi Martin,
Many thanks for your kind words earlier. Learning is a 2 way process and thank you for your input on the forum, chat and FB.
Best wishes
I have not had a bet today or since my last post.
Sometimes things happen that put my problems into perspective. Had a call from Bali where my oldest childhood friend is at the wedding of his sister in law to tell us his Mum has passed away. To say I'm devastated is not a strong enough word.
She has been our neighbour for over 50 years till she moved into a home a coupe of years ago. I used to go on holidays with them. They even used to take me to bingo on a Sunday night at the local working men's club. She used to always tie my shoe laces I could never do them as a kid.
She might bit of been my blood but she was as close as any family member.
My mum is unconsolable ive never seen her like this or never noticed as I was to wrapped up in my own stuff. Literally this morning she has just written her birthday card and was going round to see her this afternoon. Thank god she didn't, can't bear to think what that would have been like if she turned up to see her today.
She's had a great life never ever moaned and she has been through some s**t health wise for the last 20 years. Hard to take comfort in the fact that she is not suffering anymore at the minute.
How her son is coping on the other side of the world I can't imagine.
A great lady taken from us. RIP Pat I'll see you on the other side one day. Until then I will continue to make you proud as you told me the last time my spoke X
KTF mine is being tested today.
KTF
Sorry to hear your sad news Martin and as you said it certainly does put things into perspective my friend , look after you and those around you . Thinking of you buddy x
Sorry to read that dude. Drop me a message if you need a chat.
X ktf I know you will
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