Yesterday - didnt gamble - day 1
it was a hard day yesterday. I was so tired yesterday because the night before i had gambled until 3am and because of the losses i couldnt sleep. I had work in 4 hours time so i had to sleep, tried everything and then had a few drinks as the last option.
So at work on minimal sleep and hung over, really tough but made it. Had a think about punting watching the fugby league but quickly snapped out of it.
Im thinking about going to a hypnotherapist, helped people i know with their smoking and insomnia. More to come, thanks for reading and good luck.
Good luck Chubb5000
what barriers do you have in place ? access to money, online blocks and self exclusion etc ?
Have you been to GA ? its not as scary as you may think and you will get lots of great help and advice
You can do it mate
Thanks plastic dream, ive self excluded now from most online bookies and the casino so it should be a bit easier now.
I havent gone to a ga but not too keen. Maybe if i fail again ill go.
So today is day 3 hey! Well i feel pretty good and not getting any urges, i joined a 24 hour boxing club yesterday and have been twice so far. I feel great, its one of my true loves and i never realised how much i needed it to feel good about myself and get all that negative energy out.
2 nights ago i went out for a friends pre wedding drinks and while i was out i bumped into my ex girlfriends friends and had a chat. At one point while talking about money they joked about my gambling(my ex had obviously told them all) and it really got to me. Just more fuel for the fire to help me give up this vice.
I think being on here and keeping a diary and reading other peoples stories is really helping me. Thank you gamcare community
Day 5 - This is going really quick and I'm not gettin the urge at all, I think joining that 24 hour boxing club has really helped me. I went to uni to do some study with a friend today and she told me she's been going through a bit of s**t in the last year.
Her friend had fleeced her for a 100grand from bad investments and her parents had to sell their house because her dad had somehow racked up 500k in debts. She thinks it's gambling. It's really tragic because she told me had gone through the kids' trust funds as well, 2 million. No idea how this has all happened but the family is destroyed.
This would be my nightmare and another reminder I have to stick to this or it could very well happen to me.
Day 7 - It's been a full week and no urges at all. I got paid last night and have had zero urge to gamble it. Really think having a full day and going to the gym a lot is helping, getting a lot done and enjoying life again. Keep marching on everyone!
Well done Chubb5000, really positive post and its great to see you hit 7 days gf! Good luck as you keep marching on!
Hi Chubb and thanks for the post ,we all have different story's on here and can usually identify with a few ! Well done on hitting your first week , that's usually a toughie but it looks like the Gyms helping you to focus on something else and that's always good . Take care Chubby and keep doing what works ! Best wishes .... AL
Day 11 - First off, thanks Rose and Alan for the kind words, I think knowing that other people are going through what I"m going through and we're all supporting each other is really helping out.
I went out on Saturday night and that could have been the end of me because the people I was hanging out with wanted to goto the casino. I went and had a few drinks and had a dance, I even watched a black jack table with the people I was with but didn't gamble!!
A win for me but I can't let my guard down, I've been in this state of false security before, every day is a battle.
Good luck everyone and I wish you all a focused mind and minimal temptation
Day 14 - 2 weeks!! I've caught a cold so I haven't been able to goto the gym which means I feel a lot crappier about myself which means my mind wonders onto negative thoughts and gambling. Staying strong though and really working hard to keep this streak alive.
I figured out a way to win money off the bookies guaranteed via a system with free bets and I was thinking about doing it but I just gotta remind myself that it's pretty much gambling which means that I'll just be back at day 0 again, not where I wanna be...
I'm finding it a bit hard to feel positive these days because I'm working a part time job I don't like (so not too much money and not enjoying the work), I'm studying (so no time) and therefore my social and love life is suffering hard core. A transition phase I hope, but it's hard to stay positive. Sometimes I find myself thinking what the point of this life is and why I'd ever bring children into this world.
I'm sure other people have it way worse than me and I hope we can all find the strength to keep pushing on and start to make a better future for ourselves or at least believe we can...
anyways, good luck to anyone reading this and know that all of you are in my thoughts.
I assume you are talking about the risk free bet for certain online bookies. In sorry to be blunt but but give your head a wobble. Do you really think to will withdraw the winnings, you will just just it to play with and eventually lose it inc your original stake. If anthing like 95% of people on here will then continue to chase it back.
The bookies don't give anything away for free they miss you and a want you back
You can't win beaches you can't stop.
KTF
He chubb , Oldhams right you know , its just another marketing ploy to offer something for nothing which they hope will suck you straight back in as the saying goes " Nothings for nothing" and as c.r.a.P.P.y as you feel right now you'd feel a whole lot worse getting over your man flu and realising you were back at square one , stick with the plan buddy and it'll see you through !
Best wishes ....... Alan
Just a thought....when id self excluded from a online site the wonderfull marketing team who employ babs windsor...decided as i was a vip customer they would send me a £150 voucher to play with as they had missed me !
Ok. ..so yes it did give me a wobble...yes I did think...shall I some how try to get online ( don't know how cause I got blocks in place )...and yes i did struggle with it....but I sat down...had a coffee...came on here...and realised that it's all a con...they knew dam well I would never withdraw if I had a win...that I would go on to deposit again...and a light bulb came on in my head....imagine all the staff in the office saying...Ooh...another suckers fallen for our marketing tactic....well you feckers...not this one...I rang the gambling commision and reported them....nobody's messing with my recovery....and i defo won't be the laughing stock of office staff who I contributed to there wages for far to long....rise above it love...I wish you well xx
day 15 - yeah you guys are right, i'm here because i cant control myself and i probably would get carried away with those freebies. Sigh.
Its crazy how quickly the memories of dread disappear. Thanks for being real with me, ciao.
Loxxie wrote: Just a thought....when id self excluded from a online site the wonderfull marketing team who employ babs windsor...decided as i was a vip customer they would send me a £150 voucher to play with as they had missed me ! Ok. ..so yes it did give me a wobble...yes I did think...shall I some how try to get online ( don't know how cause I got blocks in place )...and yes i did struggle with it....but I sat down...had a coffee...came on here...and realised that it's all a con...they knew dam well I would never withdraw if I had a win...that I would go on to deposit again...and a light bulb came on in my head....imagine all the staff in the office saying...Ooh...another suckers fallen for our marketing tactic....well you feckers...not this one...I rang the gambling commision and reported them....nobody's messing with my recovery....and i defo won't be the laughing stock of office staff who I contributed to there wages for far to long....rise above it love...I wish you well xx
I also hate the idea of the employees of these establishments looking down at us
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