day 1

Hi Jess,

I have just started following your story this morning, and would like to say a massive well done on your achievement to date! I hope i can stay as strong as you. Keep up that good work. Today is only day 2 for me, but im determined to do this now 🙂

All the best

TALBS & Joanne, to you both thank you, your continued encouragement and support is helping an enormous amount i truly do appreciate it.

Day 31: feeling good just about to do my online weekly food shop which i have done for the last 3 weeks, cooking and eating much better is definitely helping my mentality and giving myself and the family so much more energy.

also joined weight watchers (lol) just want to shift those few pounds i gained after having the baby 4 months ago, im not really overweight but its something ive been conscious of few a good few weeks now and my mind is feeing positive i want my body to now as well 🙂

Staying strong & feeling bloody good 🙂

*Suzanne not Joanne ( i have just been reading another diary and as i pressed post i knew it was the wrong name, so sorry x)

Hi Jess

Another good positive post to read. Before I go to work makes me feel even more positive and determined

Keep going am going the same way right behind you

Forwards and upwards one day at a time

Best wishes Suzanne xx

Hi Jess

No worries I will let you off lol

Hey a fantastic achievement to you on 31 days

Yes Until 30 days ago I played at every opportunity I could never missing a day because if no funds I would sadly waste my time playing bonus points for hours on bingo just to win one pound to play on the machine I fed

Have a strong positive day you are doing BRILL

Best wishes Suzannexx

hi jess thanks so much for posting on my diary , your great keep up the goodwork soldier:)

i see a lot of myself in way you talk about being very closed struggling to get accross feelings and emotions to even ones closed to (like my wife). Hopefully being able to across feeling and thoughts on here will help and make me less likely to gamble.

anyway enough rambling on your diary for today lol ,ill leave that for my own one how rude of me 😉

takecare

fitzy

thanks a lot fitzy hope your doing well.

day 35 for me today these days really are flying by didnt even realise it was wednesday i last wrote.

Had a great week spent a lot of time with friends and nick went for a lovely meal with him on wed which was great gave us a bit of time together without the kids, thursday was out for a meal with the girls for a friends bday and friday had friends round for tea and spent the day at the beach yday with nick and the kids. (all of which i am fully aware wouldnt have happened if i was still gambling)

Also i have booked a short trip to Italy for me and nick at the end of september which we are both looking forward to so much, he works so hard such long hours comes home and spend time with the kids and me and never complains he deserves a break, hes such a good man. i wanted it to be a suprise but he came in drained and said he was really considering leaving where he is i told him he couldnt ( to which he panicked and said why? have you been gambling again- totally understandable reaction given my history and it felt so good laughing and saying god NO, delivering a nice suprise instead of a sh*tty one once again gives me the boost i need to carry on)

So all in all a bloody good week i am honestly feeling happier than i have in a very long time, not only because i can afford to do things i love doing but because i am seeing signs of the old jess, the happy one who enjoys life and loved ones.

Staying strong 🙂

Really well done to you jess seeing you doing so well helps mealso , like you being in earlyish stages.

Keep it going your doing great 🙂

I like you doing more, making plans, feeling more positive in general.

I feel at home here on this forum with ppl that understand and can relate to so much that wrote as regards gambling and though patterns.

Take care

Fitzy

Hi Jess

Thanks for post and keep feeling positive you are doing great your happy feelings are coming through keep abstaining

Suzanne xx

hey jess all sounds very encouraging and i am glad than now the initial urges and regrets are starting to subside that you are seeing the old jess agian.

congrats on booking the trip to italy. these rewards are a good way of reminding yourself of what you could be doing if you didnt gamble.

keep it up

Talbs

day 38 for me feeling good thanks for the continued support 🙂

Hi Jess

Good going keep keeping strong

Best wishess Suzanne x

keep going jess your doing great , well done:)

fitzy

40 days... i remember writing my 1st post on here and looking at other peoples diaries who had reached this and more and thinking god i hope thats me soon. Its hard to believe 40 days ago i was at breaking point beyond depressed and feeling pretty hopeless and unbelievable shame, the shame is still there and i think it needs to be but im happy and i have been happy for the majority of the last 40 days.

The sick feeling and stomach in knots is no longer haunting me, the panic when nick picks up the laptop incase ive left a gambling site on is gone.

This site and the people on it has been an amazing support and i truly believe without the continued support of people it would have been and still will be a possibility to revet back to old habits. but old habits die hard!! and today i feel good.

Staying strong

Jess 🙂

Hi Jess

Keep going and going you Are on the right road to peace and happiness milestone 40 days well done

And it's a lovely day that we won't waste on gambling

Suzanne xx