Day 1

Hi Lu , Just popping by to say abig congratulations on getting to 3 weeks , seeing how far youv'e come and how much things have changed for you in 3 weeks is just amazing , sorry to hear of the difficulties your having regarding your grandson but as you say unfortunately it's a shame they become weapons in a fight that has nothing to do with them , keep smiling Hun and hopefully things will improve :)) xx

Just quick drop by to say still gf and that's way it's staying :)) I'm reading the first Game of Thrones book and I can't put it down lol wouldn't have had so much pleasure if still been gambling just stress, depression, anxiety, worrying myself sick at losses, just sat here tapping the screen on my phone to spin those wheels what a waste of time. Just has I had to get my head around the amount of losses I've got my head around the sheer waste of my life just to end up in debt. It does bug me still but getting over it now. Had a horrible dream that my husband was playing a slot and he won £723.00 (where did that figure come from!) and he wouldn't give me any of the winnings even though I put money in too but he played, so I went off playing them on my own and lost all the holiday money that dream left nasty taste in mouth! No urges as such just thoughts but as my dream shows I'm obviously thinking about it on a deeper level. Another day gf long may it continue. Best wishes everyone Lu xx

Hey Lu well done on your gf days, they are certainly mounting up now and you should be so proud of yourself. Keep going x x

Wow didn't even realised missed a day posting been so busy and reading Game of Thrones can't put it down. Must be living a normal life now. Still gf not even been tempted one big thought that's been going through my head is sheer futility of gambling, chances of winning anything to make a difference is tiny but even if did it would all go back in sooner or later, sooner if your cg and if you did manage to withdraw you'd eventually put it all back in over the course of however long. Me I just kept feeding the greedy slots it had got to just the actual playing and escape, buzz whatever. What a boring way to spend your money really sitting tapping a screen watching reels go round and round obviously for me being a cg that was what I craved. There is only one winner and that wasn't me but is now! Despite normal life problems I'm happier than I've been in a very long while and that's even with suffering depression. The medication generally keeps me even but when I was gambling God depression, anxiety terrible worry over losses etc etc not eating not sleeping properly etc etc. So yes I am happier and definitely more at peace. Long may it continue. Best wishes everyone on your journeys Lu x

God have had a really strong urge some money has hit my account and I'm craving it bad but blocks in place. Where did that come from I've been so ok I really thought I'd done it but obviously not thank gif blocks in place or think I would have gambled :(( come on here my natural default setting now and got to read some diaries. Such a strong urge :(( still gf though never going back best wishes everyone Lu xx

It's weird how the urges can come from outer space isn't. ...
That's the whole idea of the blocks. ....and you've pushed through again loo. ....greattttt. ...and well done to you....
When that little voice suggests a little play....tell it to jog on...or worse ! lol
Stay strong love....x

25 days! Not been counting cos I wanted to just let them roll by and I had it in my head anyway. 3 more days and 4 weeks! Amazing to say for last few years I didn't go more than a day or so without gambling apart from when I had no money of course but then I'd always find money hence why I'm in debt. No more urges today I spent my money on shopping whereas before it would've gone straight on slots and we'd be on beans and toast. Happy 🙂 I really am doing this! Feels good! Best wishes everyone Lu xx

Hi Lu , thanks for the post love and all good this end thanks :)), glad those urges have left you alone again and that your feeling good again , I can't believe your coming up for a month already , seems like only a few days ago you wern't in such a great place but your smashing those weeks now alright :)).

Have a great weekend Lu and take care .

Alan xx

Yes...your doing it loo !
Well done ....
Fighting those early urges is so hard....you've prooved it's not impossible. ....
Let those days stack up .....it gets better everyday x

Hey Lu just thought I would drop by and say fantastic 28 days gf, feels amazing doesn't it x well done x

Hi Lu. Just popping in to say good going on the 28 days (not that you're counting!). Hope your weekend was good and here's to another gf week. LB x

Hey everybody thanks for posts! Yes 28 days! I'll post to each of you later, thanks so much for good wishes:)) I've been totally addicted to Vikings on Amazon Prime lol as well as Game of Thrones book lol in all honesty this weekend and today up until now I hadn't even thought about gambling cos watched loads of episodes of Vikings and slept most day Sunday was just so tired. Am bit worried about Wednesday though as get paid. I know I've dealt with paydays before but am so tempted thinking I can make a bit money for Christmas at least they are thoughts that pop into my head when I think about pay day. Does the old gambling thoughts ever go away? I've done so well and totally accepted gamblings beat me and it's complete waste time and money and I'll never win cos I can't stop, yet the old habit of thinking the opposite still come with some force. I'm so so pleased I've done 28 days but so want the old way of thinking to do one! Still early days though and I'm not the most patient also need to work on accepting that I'll always be an ex cg.. anyway back to my Vikings god they are nice lol. Thanks everyone I'll post later best wishes everyone Lu xx

Well not great day feel down and worried about payday tomorrow even though I've blocks if I get in that 'zone' I'll probably find way around them but I'm determined I've come so far and the only reason I'm down is cos im thinking about gambling and it's not what I want to think about at all. I keep pushing thoughts away not allowing them to develop if you know what I mean but I'm thinking maybe sit and face these thoughts as the more you try to stop thinking about it the more you do. I scare myself that I know I can get so out of control but got to face that too I reckon. Another day gf every day I'm free is a step towards a better life and I will not ruin my future anymore best wishes everyone Lu xx

Payday.......

Stay strong Lu - 30 days is a great achievement. Keep it up

Treat yourself to something as a reward - new hat and gloves would be my recommendation!

Hey Lu - congrats 30 days gf, remember what we discussed the other day about looking at bank statements with all those withdrawels on them - you do not want to have to look at them again so come on stay strong - you got through one you can do it again. rooting for you x