Well done it again, them dam slots won a little, lost it and a whole lot more.
This has got to stop, said it before but hopefully this time will be different.
Got to start thinking about my future and stop putting my cash in slot machines, its not big and its not clever.
To be honest dont know why i do it, stayed off them for weeks and then something in my head just clicked and i was back in arcade zoned out feeding £20 notes into machine.
Well thats another dint in my savings and another wasted day.
Got to sort my act out
Well today is the start again, it's not going to be easy but i'm determined to beat this.
The thoughts of going out and trying to win back my losses are there.
Hooefully i will resist and take this one day at a time.
Samson & Emily, thanks for the supportive comments, stopping for a few weeks is never a problem, it's just after a couplre of weeks i seem to forget about the previous losses and end up at the slot machines again.
This time i hope will bw different, going to make it harder to get hold of the cash to gamble with from now on. Just got to stay focused with positive thoughts to beat these demons.
Well day one of been gf is nearly over, only had a few thoughts of going online and trying to win some of my losses back but I have resisted the urge & tomorrow is another day which hopefully I will not succumb to my addiction, plan on keeping myself busy with work, Something which as been seriously neglected for the best part of a year.
Well it's monday morning again, managed yesterday gamble free.
No work today so going to throw myself into doing some paperwork, sort the bank accounts out so that i cannot get access to my savings and hopefully have another day gamble free
Well day 2 gamble free has gone quite well, passed two arcades on way to bank with money in my pocket and did not go in, although i had a few thoughts of trying my luck. To be honest the first few weeks seem easy as usually i am discusted by my recent splurge on the slots.
Day 3 tomorrow, hopefully another day gamble free & smoke free as i have also quit smoking
Onwards & upwards hopefully
Day 3 - Try & keep myself busy today, sort out some more work & hopefully stay gamble & smoke free for another day.
yesterday was a bit of a rough day, kept thinking about how much I had lost over the years but I know there's no way of getting it back unless I make the money through working, but at the moment that's not going too well as I don't seem to have the motorvation.
Got quite a few things to get sorted today, so going to give mi head a big shake and try & be positive and get stuff done.
Hopefully another day gamble free.
Hi Sparks, these recovery diaries are so good with the right support. I am glad you are doing well. I am on day one and unlike you, the first 2 weeks are always the hardest for me but after 4 weeks of the gambling, I know I will think I am cured and I can just put £20 and take out what I win.... never works out!! Motivation is aomething I lack too.. you just kind of feel like ' why do I bother' but trust me a life without gambling is so much more rewarding! Longest I have gone is about 4 months in the last 7 years and they were the happiest months of my life so far..... Keep going, you are doing amazing 🙂
Silver x
Thanks silver for the positive message, will have a look at your diary when I get a chance.
no urge to gamble today, even been in to town with money in my pocket but stayed away from arcades and just went where I needed. Got plenty of urges to smoke but I am determined to give up both the slots and the cigs which seem to go hand in hand for me.
Got a few jobs to do tomorrow, the money will be going straight into bank tho, not going anywhere near a slot machine.
Just got to keep positive thoughts & keep myself dog constructive things.
well diary I'll be back in morning to report.
Well day six, going well not had any urges today or yesterday but been busy with work.
Tommorow will be a tough one as I need to go into town to do some shopping and pick up some stuff from dry cleaners, going to take minimal cash with me and no bank cards, that way if i get the urge i won't be able to play those d**n slot machines
Saturday morning is here, this weekend s usually the day I would have succumbed to th urge to go and have a quick punt on the slots. Today will be different, keep myself busy and keep positive. I have finally accepted the money I have lost will never come back.
I will let you know later how today goes, over and out.
Well diary day 8 is here or week 2 day 1.
The urge to gamble has not been strong at all, but this is where it starts to get harder once the losses are out of my mind.
So a little reminder to myself - today is a good day
Today shall be a productive day of some sort
Today shall be a gamble free day.
Will report to you later
Day 8 has passed with out any incidence, day 9 tomorrow hopefully another day gf, should be busy working all day.
Starting to feel more positive now, but still need the motorvation to return as i have spent most the day watching c**P on tv when i could have been doing something more constructive.
Alarm set for 6.00am in morning, early bird catches the worm.
Morning Sparks, well done on day 9 gf. If you need motivation, perhaps set yourself little goals each day. This may not help, and is only an idea. I do this daily and it helps me to feel good that I've been a little productive. Just simple things, nithing major and doesn't need to cost money. A little walk after work, I've started to watch documentaries about people less fortunate than myself and this really motivates me, as if they can carry on fighting through life, then I certainly can. Hope your strength stays with you this week. Take care cx
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