Day 65 second time around

Evening "Olive " :))

They were lovely bye the way so thank you but totally unnecessary as I didn't word the reply well to be honest , so it could be taken all ways really . I';m working sometimes when I post ( well that's what I like to call it ) and often just rush something so maybe a little note to self eh ? .

The joke wasn't bad but maybe stick to the job you have at least until after the new year eh ? :(( .

Just noticed your day count getting into some really good numbers :)) So well done that girl , onwards and upwards twinks , so to reward you " What do you call a dog with wing's " ? ( don't you dare mention Linda Mcartney) :)) .

Talk to you soon Honybunch xx

This time last year, I was probably sat in front of my laptop watching wheels spin and my bill money disappear. I was at the start of my last binge - worrying about how I would pay for Christmas and so making the totally illogical decision to gamble to try to find a way to make ends meet. The thing is, I could make ends meet, I just couldn't afford the luxury I thought my son deserved, you know, the extras, what every other boy (I perceived) in his class had. In actual fact, my son had everything he needed, apart from a sane mum. I ruined last Christmas because I was tearful and on edge, totally self-inflicted. I had turned into a self-indulgent, self-pitying shell of a person (again). I've been reflecting this morning as to how different this year is, no, how different I am this year. I am happier than I have been in 6 or 7 years, and so my son is happier than he has been in 6 or 7 years. We've always had a great relationship, but as all gamblers know, you're never really 100% 'there' when you're with your nearest and dearest because you are either trying to think of a way to escape to gamble, or trying to think of a way to get some money in order to gamble. So. I'm sat here with the Christmas tree lights twinkling, Saturday Kitchen on the box, housework done and realising there is nothing I would less rather do than gamble. I've got my life back and it feels great! 339 days today, high five to me.

El hombre

It's strange how we perceive people's lives to be better than our own. I think social media adds fire to this. I don't know what it's called but let's call it the social media effect.
You get snippets of people's lives
Flash cars. Holiday's abroad. Always out having meals. And so on. And then it gets you thinking I want that life. What it doesn't show is 90 percent of people are living a life on finance. And we as compulsive gamblers know exactly how that pans out.

In my eye's you didn't ruin last Christmas. You gave him the best present he could ask for you gave him his mom back.

You my freind are doing amazing
And I'm proud to walk alongside you.

Shame you missed out how last year you didn't have an awesome sidekick called jase?

I'm sending out big tens to my freind Kylie xxx

All credit to you Rachel, (so to speak). Hope all milestones are as easy as they can be.

BW,

CW

Sending Happy Christmas wishes to all on GC. It's a rollercoaster of a ride and we may not all agree on how to achieve success or even what success looks like, but we do all agree that we are better for being in the company of others who want to be free of addiction I hope. I'm planning on having a gambling free Christmas, and that means to me, not logging on to this site either for a couple of weeks - it will in actual fact be the first time in 3 years that I haven't felt the need to look in (through tear-filled eyes) in what should be the happiest time of the year. So, best wishes everyone, I wish you all a happy and peaceful time.

Rachel x

Happy holidays homeslice

Are we using our birth names now?

Have a great one

Kisses

Roland

Hi,

Thanks for your kind post. Merry xmas to you and yours. Thanks for your help throughout the year

X

Hey Arnold - thankyou for the post I'm pleased to say we're all in a better position at the end of the 2016 May it continue for all of us. Have a lovely Christmas and thankyou for being there xx

Hey twinks...
Yep....I think we travel well together....
Stuff loxfest. ...lets fek of on a safari ! : )
Seriously love.....thanks...and have a good one..
Karaoke in the bar nye
Maybe a kylie and Jason track..
Mwahhhhhhh

Eeek
Two more sleeps twinks
Hope you've ironed your dress
Bet the boys have : )
X

I no I'm a few hours early but I'm getting in first to congratulate my partner in crime on her first full year gamble free. What a ride huh? Thanks for all the countless laughs you have given me along your journey.
It wouldn't be a first birthday without a catapiliar cake would it?
Well done Rachel I've even used your real name for this special occasion
Proud of you xx

Congratulations on the milestone and best wishes for an easy journey.

CW

Morning Twinks.

Congratulations on your fab achievement x

Congratulations chick, welcome to the one year club something to be very proud of xxx

Morning hun. .
Sorry I spilt the bucks fizz..! : )
Jokes aside. ...massive well done on your one year gamble free...
As you were saying last night....
'What a difference a year makes'
Xx