Day 65 second time around

Hey Arn congratulations on your birthday, 365 days!! Massive achievement. High fives to you have a great day and make sure you have cake today xx wcid

Just read your first post. And to see how far you have come in 12 month's is amazing.
Congratulations again on your first birthday
Where's our speech?
Xx

Thank you my lovely friends. I remember my last blast as though it was yesterday, I was too numb to even come on here straight away. I felt hopeless, utterly hopeless. I didn't believe I could stop, ever. I questioned why I was allowed to 'be' at all. Be alive, be a mum, be anything. Well, here I am, almost back to my old self, still have a few scars from my lost years, but as normal as I've been in years. Through Gamcare, I have met people who will be lifelong friends. Supportive, positive cheerleaders - we all react to things in different ways, personally I need positive support, that's what works for me, and my besties on here and on the FB group have done that, thank you. I don't open up much about my personal life, my journey, my inner turmoil because that's for me. That doesn't make me less of a person, it doesn't mean I don't ask questions of myself, it doesn't mean I don't learn. I haven't been on the newcomers thread yet today, I will later and try to inspire at least one person. Remember folks, we have all been where they are and that is what this place is best at in my opinion, picking people up at the start when they are a mess.

Anyway, I have steak for dinner tonight, this time last year I did my weekly shopping in Aldi for £26. Tonights dinner with my celebratory bottle of Prosecco thrown in cost about that - that makes me smile. So, I'm off to cook the dinner but just wanted to check in with you all to say thank you very, very much for your lovely wishes, I'm 1 year old and very proud to be so.

Twinklyr, Arnold, Kylie and Rach

xxx

I'm from the f&f side... always so happy and encouraging to see somebody hit that 1 year mark. Congrats... I know it is a most difficult journey:)

Cathyx

Yo twinks.....
Sorry...I drank all the bucks fizz this morning !
Hope you enjoyed yr supper....
I've just finished for the night..
Side effect of being a landlady.....more like a social worker really..oh well..love my crustomers really...366 today you booty xxx

Lol yes....
Weird feeling really. ....just can't imagine being back there now....
Anyhow.....I've been a total lazy slob today....still in pjs...lots of crappy true channels on tv....loads of coffees. ......do i feel guilty..nope !
Loved it : ) x

Lol...bless you...
It's just another day along lifes journey.....a much better life I must add...but then you know that...we've got here together xx

I know you dont like my take on the things, but just wanted to say congratulations on the year & for beginning to put your life back together

Yo twinks...thanks for popping over..what a year it's been for us both. ...didn't kylie and Jason sing
" together forever "
Got the dam tune in my head now
I'll be humming it around Morrison's later ! x

Belated congratulations, success stories keep us motivated and I look forward to being able to say 'I'm one year gf today' best wishes to you and yours x

Ok diary, so I now know what my triggers are. Anger, boredom and self pity. I've had my closest call in months. I think it's all been about punishing myself - for what? Not being a good employee, not being a good friend, not being a good sister, not being a good mother. I've been guilty of all of those things in the past and those memories have haunted me for a few days. Triggered, initially, by my friendly casino W.Hill emailing me. Not just emailing me, reminding me of my past. Well a*******s, I have also been a very good employee, a very good friend, a very good sister and a very good mother - that trumps the bad. I've been good much longer than I was bad. I will not punish myself any longer, and I will not punish those who love me. I will not open a new account. I will not gamble.

Well done twinklyr

Pushing through the wobbles makes us stronger and more confident long term

Louis

That's my girl holding your resolve
Their sneaky bar stools sending that S***e out. The only people that self exclude are problem gambalers and they know that.

It's good that you saw that the above statements were false. I've only known you a while and I know you're a good person.
Addiction will tell us anything it wants to try worm it's way back in. It's been a rubbish month for me also I'm sure January is 85 day's long? Drop me a pm when you need a chat I'm just brushing up on my Albanian
Peace out xx

Hello, well done on not giving in, that's right you are a good person and will remain so, it's just that mr g trying to lure you back, knock him out x best wishes. X

Twinklyr - I've just read your diary entry for the first time and it's practically a mirror image of mine (I'm 42, single mum with a son, but minus the house because my debt is so bad I've had to move back in with my parents). Each day is a bloody struggle and stressful beyond stressful. I'm going to be in this boat for the next 6and half years until I clear my debts unless: a) I blag one of the doctors on my ward b) I win the lottery - but that's gonna be hard when I don't even buy a ticket or c) I write a best selling novel about how gambling sucks. I would give anything to rewind 2 years and never even think about signing up all the usual suspect gambling sites known to man, but hey ho, hindsight is a wonderful thing.

Well done on your amazing achievement - you are truly inspirational xxx