Thanks Sars, 66.
Keep up the good work and I will see you both in Chat.
Day 121
In complaceny mode at the moment. I seem to have forgotten the harm gambling has done to my life. Need to be strong. I am determined to get to 200 days. I am determined to stop.
Payday is looming. I need to get plans in place to avoid having cash easily available.
Day 125
Another Credit Card bites the dust. I decided to pay off my purchases only credit card as it was within reach. Unfortunately, I still have one massive CC debt that will take a good while to pay off completely. Only 3 debts left (again! as I miscounted on Day 94). My Purchases Only card was handy as I could not withdraw cash with it and I heavily relied on it when things got really bad between paydays. I decided to get rid because I am committed to being debt free and I have stopped using it as I no longer get myself into a financial mess every month.
Day 137
Another bookmakers bites the dust. There are only 2 bookmakers in the small town I live in. A red one and a blue one and I have not been in the blue one for years and years due to the franchise refusing to payout on a bet one time. Anyway, the red one is the bookmakers I used to be in most frequently and it has just closed. Muhahahaha. I did reduce the amount of time I visited as I was tired of that look the regular staff used to give me as I placed more and more bets. Unsurprisingly, I was given the impression I was the biggest loser in the town. Good riddance again.
Congrats on 137 days! It's always nice to hear about an establishment closing. Gambling is illegal in some countries, I personally wish it was the case in the UK but unfortunately it isn't going to be anytime soon! 🙁
Thank you Dan. I appreciate you taking to time to comment on my diary. I would love it if some nutcase got in power and outlawed gambling for a few years.
Day 141
Over 20 weeks gamble free. I still have some self destructive habits that do not involve gambling and they have come to light in the past couple of weeks.
A few bad days have got me thinking of gambling again. Fortunately, when I take a few minutes to think it through my head tells me I should not gamble even if my heart is not convinced.
Day 150 milestone is coming soon and I have time off work. I will need to think of a nice reward.
Day 143
Read this post again. I may start linking to some of the many posts I can relate to and find useful to my recovery.
http://www.gamcare.org.uk/forum/we-cannot-win-long-term
Hi Degen and great chatting with you tonight. Linking to posts that have inspired you is a great idea.
(P.s. although the one above doesn't seem to work 🙂 )
(P.P.s. ahh - worked it out - the full stop on the end of the link needs to go 🙂 )
All the best
Mixer
Thanks Mixer. Full stop is gone.
Thanks for the post on my diary , much appreciated . Your 145 Days GF really spurs me on , reminds me we can break away from the abysmal life of compulsive gambling . Take care ....stephen
Day 149
Discussing rock bottom in Chat today. I had so many rock bottoms they just got worse as I kept feeding the addiction.
In no particular order...
I am sure I have missed some out. Anyway, 149 days gamble free. I am much better off. Stable financially, healthy and less worried/depressed each month.
Day 150
A decent milestone. I treated myself to new earphones.
My longest diary on this website gets to Day 151 before stopping and I dont believe I lasted particulary long after that. I will wake up 2mo in the same position I was in back then. Hopefully, no relapses around the corner this time as I ended up doubling my debts in a couple of months.
I just checked. I gambled on day 151. Sunday should be a new personal best.
Congratulations on this major milestone Degen and, not only that, your total respect for the reality of the situation - that it always has been, and always will be, a day-to-day mission.
But fantastic milestones such as this are always worth full acknowledgement, especailly as it's a PB. Next target - WR! 🙂
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