As I stepped into my 40th year on Saturday, 28th March 2026, surrounded by the love and support of my family, I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude. Sitting at the meal they had so thoughtfully arranged, I looked around and realised I had never been more thankful to simply be alive.
There were so many beautiful moments that day, but three in particular stayed with me my son’s smile as he said “happy birthday, mummy,” sharing such a special milestone with my twin sister, and being surrounded by family who came together just to celebrate with me. My heart felt so full.
Through it all, my trust in God has deepened. I’ve come to understand that gambling was a part of my journey, but only a small bump in the road it does not define me. I am Carmen. I am kind, I am grateful, I am thankful. I am who God created me to be. I believe I am forgiven, and that truth brings me peace.
Today, as I spent time reading my Bible Romans 5 really spoke to my heart and reminded me of the depth of grace, hope, and renewal that I’ve been given.
“Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us.”
Romans 5:1
Hi Carmen
What a powerful post and I'm so glad you had an amazing birthday and were present for the presents
You are an amazing person Carmen ! That's it, no reflection on the past, today you are an amazing person
Even if you were able to change the past you wouldn't be the person you are today and have the proudest son in the world of his mummy.
Lovely post Carmen.....didn't know u had a twin that must be amazing...happy birthday .......that meal sounds lovely......all the best adam xx
@lp5vut869c thank you Stuart as always for your positive and thoughtful comments, you are always so encouraging
@adam123 thank you Adam, always appreciate your lovely comments xx
Hi Carmen,
I am pleased to hear you had a lovely birthday. It is indeed very nice. We are grateful to what we have got: a loving family, unconditional love and support from people we know and reasonable health to be able to get around. At one time we were not even aware we nearly lost all these beautiful things from gambling. Today, I had a good walk for five miles in the countryside enjoying the nice wild flowers, listening to the beautiful bird songs and the gentle breeze. I am grateful to have another chance to appreciate the nature again which is at my doorstep instead of keep burying myself at the souless arcade casino.
Thanks for your kind support as always and I really admire your positivity!
Hi Carmen,
Firstly - a very happy birthday to you for Saturday just gone. Your post is beautiful, and you are beautiful. I'm so pleased to hear you were able to stop quietly and reflect, really notice the love around you and which you truely deserve, and take in those wonderful moments.
Absolutely gambling does not define who you are, and in a lot of ways the recovery really opens up our minds, hearts and souls to our strength, determination and path to growth. Nobody is perfect, and it isn't perfection we are seeking. But the ability to learn and move forward, recognise all that is wonderful around us and appreciate the precious moments and new life we have been given.
Keep on shining
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