feelbad

How could I be so stupid

favdoc wrote:

Trouble is even if I don't gamble this will not help financial position......or possible marital one

then again it won't add to the S***e.

Build some days up, demist the head space. Believe and be kind to yourself.

Just sit around

Volcano wrote: [quote=favdoc]

Trouble is even if I don't gamble this will not help financial position......or possible marital one

then again it won't add to the S***e. Build some days up, demist the head space. Believe and be kind to yourself.

yeah I know just so I dont know

I appreciate all your guys and gals help.....I have never said....worse is I used to be a sort of mentor and therapist so I know what I should be telling myself".....

Yo bud.

I know like many peeps on here can emphasise where your at...

Its S***e isn't it but f**k dig deep, find the resolve you've forgotten hidden away in your phyche. Use the GC helpline, use these diarys, use GA. There is a life out there, keep probing and looking...

Ga out of question wife would want to know where I was going

I am trying to get a second job. To get a bit behind me

I know your going to say won't wife be suss as to where money has gone....luckily she has never been involved in cash.....I wish she had ..and I paid a lump off mortgage which in some ways I regret and in some i dont

Yo bud..

Maybe it's time to get the wife involved, as hard as that may seem. I do get the ' why me ' and the guilt. We're mere humans and unfortunately some of us succeed in f*****g up. Respect the addiction but don't let it decipher you..

We all need a starting place as a spring board, use this pain your feeling now as a step up for you and your Mrs.

Can't risk

Cannot get into chat room...help

Woke up today felt great then I realised I was dreaming .when I did wake up took a great effort to get out of bed.Jumping in the river seemed appealing but luckily it's some distance.Really down again.Ruminating has become constant again

Marginally better no gamble no river

she knows but not to what extent

Volcano wrote: Yo bud.. Maybe it's time to get the wife involved, as hard as that may seem. I do get the ' why me ' and the guilt. We're mere humans and unfortunately some of us succeed in f*****g up. Respect the addiction but don't let it decipher you.. We all need a starting place as a spring board, use this pain your feeling now as a step up for you and your Mrs.