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c**P night argument with wife over non related item ...actually tied belt around my neck.....but bottled it......one step up fourteen back..........cried my eyes out".......Jesus

How about contacting Samaritans, doesn't have to be a gambling counsellor if you are depressed and all feels too overwhelming.

xxx

Please please do not kill yourself. It is something you can never come back from. Please call Samaritans or call someone tell yourself this if you try it what do you have to lose but a little of your time trying. Please try something death is so final. We are all rooting for you and wanting the best for you. You're not alone.

Dragonfly wrote:

How about contacting Samaritans, doesn't have to be a gambling counsellor if you are depressed and all feels too overwhelmingHave xxx have contacted Samaritans before when marriage was going thru bad patch bout a year ago....didn't seem to do much for me.maybe this was all meant to be TA for all

Jenilee wrote:

Please please do not kill yourself. It is something you can never come back from. Please call Samaritans or call someone tell yourself this if you try it what do you have to lose but a little of your time trying. Please try something death is so final. We are all rooting for you and wanting the best for you. You're not alone.

thanks for your concern I am still here .as I told dragonfly tried Samaritans before not very impressed maybe wrong counsellor,it's all just a mess 2nd marriage gone wrong...not just gambling.....maybe it's me...I am just?...

Favdoc.

Welcome to the forum fella, I am sorry for your pain.

Reading your thread brought back many memories of my gambling life.

Depression is something I have lived with all my life, gambling for me a pure form of escapism, giving quick solutions to instantly feed the brain.

A secret life that consumed not only my 3d life but my sleep to boot.

For twenty years I progressively gambled more and with that the lying, cheating, stealing got worse.

I never addressed the real issues just ran straight to addiction.

Recovery is a long game, that will reward you in so many ways, but none instant.

The money, fella that's gone, you won't win it back, you will just add to the debt, losses.

The biggest choice of your life stands in front of you

A fork in the road.

The ultimate escape, to gift your life to addiction, to find a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Or seek real help.

Get an appointment with your gp, be totally honest, you will be offered professional help, maybe more than counselling.

Go to a GA meeting, see in 3d you are not alone.

If you want I will happily pass my details on to you, I will willingly talk with you.

What do I want in return, nothing fella, just to pass on the gift that was bestowed upon me.

Life will only improve if you commit to change, you have that opportunity.

Please take it.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thanks dunc depression has been with me for 51 years not really linked to gambling...I only really got heavy last few years by heavy I mean more than 40 a week.internet and casinos were my downfall.I haven't gambled s for about 6 days ax I said apart from the lottery syndicate pound a week nothing really.I suppose my first suicidal thoughts were about 11 years old.my life seems to be a roller coaster with highs and lows .I feel a bit calmer this morning. ..talk to you maybe although aren't supposed to not exchange details.Doctors maybe Divorce seems to be getting closer not necessarily because of gambling but that will be the nail in my "coffin". I expect then i,ll hit the booze again..don't do drugs.Thanks for your thoughts.

Fella I have exchanged details with many good folk from this forum, it gifts us the opportunity to have extra support away from the forum if needed and truthfully I have through it made some outstanding friendships.

I lleave my email address here, feel free to use it if it will he.

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Regards duncs

I hope you take the offer Duncan has extended and maybe do some talking with him since he was right where you are if you read his post about wanting to kill himself. I am a woman and I'm going to go out on a limb here a little bit about your marriage although I admit I know nothing about you or your wife. It sounds like you don't want the marriage to end. But there is fighting and gambling causing problems? Have you tried seen if there's any kind of free marriage counseling in your area? And telling your wife, no matter what the problems are fighting a hurtful etc , that you want to stay with her because you love her so much. Sometimes these heartfelt admissions can really crack the shell of any woman no matter how angry we are. If we can see that you love us more than anything. And that you'll try anything to try and see if it can be worked out.

can I ask a question are you a gambler or a gamblers spouse?

I hope you take the offer Duncan has extended and maybe do some talking with him since he was right where you are if you read his post about wanting to kill himself. I am a woman and I'm going to go out on a limb here a little bit about your marriage although I admit I know nothing about you or your wife. It sounds like you don't want the marriage to end. But there is fighting and gambling causing problems? Have you tried seen if there's any kind of free marriage counseling in your area? And telling your wife, no matter what the problems are fighting a hurtful etc , that you want to stay with her because you love her so much. Sometimes these heartfelt admissions can really crack the shell of any woman no matter how angry we are. If we can see that you love us more than anything. And that you'll try anything to try and see if it can be worked out.

Sorry still not with this replying lark are you a gambler or a gamblers spouse

For some strange reason I felt strangely calm this morning. Then in the space of about 2 hours 2 people I knew died of cancer.Terrible,when I heard the first one I thought things come in threes.I hope I am wrong

favdoc wrote:

can I ask a question are you a gambler or a gamblers spouse? Thanks jenny

I hope you take the offer Duncan has extended and maybe do some talking with him since he was right where you are if you read his post about wanting to kill himself. I am a woman and I'm going to go out on a limb here a little bit about your marriage although I admit I know nothing about you or your wife. It sounds like you don't want the marriage to end. But there is fighting and gambling causing problems? Have you tried seen if there's any kind of free marriage counseling in your area? And telling your wife, no matter what the problems are fighting a hurtful etc , that you want to stay with her because you love her so much. Sometimes these heartfelt admissions can really crack the shell of any woman no matter how angry we are. If we can see that you love us more than anything. And that you'll try anything to try and see if it can be worked out.

Gambler. But my soon to be spouse has another addiction (not gambling )so I have some dealings with that

Ok thanks didn't wish to be nosy...just have spoken with people on sites trying to advise on what they hadn't done..strange day today feel quite calm...2 deaths one quite close from cancer......and then a third..not so close...but still angry very angry with myself